flaccid

BOTAK

2006-08-17T23:27:00.000+08:00

At the rate im pulling my hair everyday
I can't wait(!) to see a bald patch on my scalp after EOYs yay

tomorrow - english SA
Saturday - Speech Day. half the day would be gone.
Sunday - Pesta Sukan Carnival. WHOLE DAY GONEEEE

anyway I received a present today. something that's very.
cool.
literally.

It's a box of Taikoo icing sugar yay! <3
Thanks Syaz.

FRUCKINGHEADACHE

2006-08-11T18:16:00.000+08:00

WURHUGDSHAUGAHA
IM FEEELING SO HORRRIBLE.
LIKE NOT EMOTIONALLY
BUT LIKE THIS AWFUL HEADACHE THAT CAN NEVER SEEM TO GO AWAY.
ITS GETTING TO ME SO BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAD THAT I CAN'T CONCENTRATE ON MY WORKKKKKKKKK
THEN AGAIN
IM NOT SURE IF ITS JUST A STUPID EXCUSE THAT MY BODY IS TRYING TO COME UP WITH SO I WON'T HAVE TO STUDY AND LIKE FAIL EOYS WITH A GPA OF 1.999999 WHILE SHIYA GETS HER 3.99999999999999
THIS IS SO ANNOYING
COME TO MAMA
I WANNA PUKE ON YOU

lovelovelovelovelovelovelove

StopConfusingMe

2006-07-15T17:58:00.000+08:00

=(

It's times like these when I feel so damn horrible
when I don't know what's my goal in life
when I can't focus
when I don't understand what's happening
when I don't know why we're here

Sleep-in

2006-06-10T19:07:00.000+08:00

RAWRRRRR

2006-04-11T12:25:00.000+08:00

The drugs begin to peak
A smile of joy arrives in me
But sedation changes to panic and nausea
And breath starts to shorten
And heartbeats pound softer
You won't try to save me
You just want to hurt me
And leave me desperate

You taught my heart
A sense I never knew I had
I can't forget
The times that I was
Lost and depressed from the awful truth
How do you do it
You're my heroine

You won't leave me alone
Chisel my heart out of stone
I give in everytime

You taught my heart
A sense I never knew I had
I can't forget
The times that I was
Lost and depressed from the awful truth
How do you do it
You're my heroine

I bet you laugh, at the thought of me thinking for myself (myself)
I bet you believe, that I'm better off with you than someone else
Your face arrives again, all hope I had becomes surreal
But under your covers more torture than pleasure
And just past your lips there's more anger than laughter
Not now or forever will I ever change you
I know that to go on, I'll break you, my habit

You taught my heart
A sense I never knew I had
I can't forget
The times when I was
Lost and depressed form the awful truth
How do you do it
You're my heroine

I will save myself

2006-03-24T21:29:00.000+08:00

24th march
SOME
ONE
SHOOT
ME,
I
BLEW
60 BUCKS
ON
THE DVD

went to ant's house today
did some work
then watched THE EXPENSIVE DVD
my heart is so pain
cause of THE EXPENSIVE DVD
SO PAINNNNNNNNNN
hahahahah
nvm it's all worth it for that cutie's pervertic grin
HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
just, kidding!
i think i was being damn annoying.
like every timeeeeee
HE JUN XIANG smiled
i will grin to myself
ahha ahhahaha hahahahaha
me and my fantasies.
anthony was like
GIL STOP FANTASIZING
haahahahah
so cuteeeeeeee lah mike heeeeee
hahahahhahahahahaha
AHHHH after all 60bucks is QUITE worth it lah |=
sigh.

trng tmrw at rj.
yawnnnnnnnnnnnnnn =)

2006-03-21T11:14:00.000+08:00

21st March.

i'll sit just right here, sweetheart

alright yo.
2 months since i blogged =)
actually i wanted to dump this shit
.. actually i set up lj like a month agoo.
but i haven updated so scrooo eet.
i see my bunny marshmellow hopping around
it looks happy
but looks are deceiving haha wth
anyway its damn adorableeeeee
<3
ahhhh ytd i just watched this taiwan serial..
the last episode i really cried my ASS OFFFFF
i was sobbing so bad
i woke my friend's mum up haha
my parents were kinda quarrelling.. thn
she didnt know if i cried cause of my parents ._.
or cause of the show i was watching.
it was like 5 am in the morning.
i wanted to stop watching at 1am.
but like, i couldnt take it
cause it was so sweet.
mike he's damn hottttt
hahahahahahahahahah
i swear i fantasize too much.
the show's like super cheesy but rah
who cares.
i see Marshmellow again ^^
haha.
anyway yeahh i even dreamt about the show??
and i know i cried while i dreaming too!
haha. i think im overdoing it man.
im gonna buy the dvd/vcd hell yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!!
there are a few of my favourite episodes that i keep watching.. cause it'll take so long to load thn it'll pause at interesting parts.. so i will get fed up and watch that part again and again haha.
but for the last episode I WILL RESIST NOT WATCHING IT AGAINNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN.
once is enough.
cause i'll save my tears for my dvd.
whn i watch all 20 episodes at a go and fantasize.
SPECIAL
THANKS
TO
MAY LIAU
THE SEX
SCENE FOR
TELLING ME
ABOUT THIS
SHOW haha honestly we fantasized quite a lot.

back to reality,
i haven't done any work AT ALL during the hols.
ah.
i have no idea why this is happening.
im a big time procrastinatorrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
and scroooooEET.
ah wth..

i've realised that a lot of things around me have changed..
the people especially.
i don't know if it's just ME OR WHAT?
i don't know how to put it together
i don't know how it started
i don't know why it happened
i don't know what went wrong
i don't know what's going on anymore..
i think i'll let go.
there's no way i can do anything about it if i am not even given a chance to.
i think i've tried enough.

OHWELL.
familyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
my mummy has like friends putting up at my place
our place is alr so smalll...
but oh well they're nice people so i guess it's okaaaaaay
her friend's son is really annoying
like hes only 1 year older than my sister?
imagine what i have to go through everyday when they're at home
raaaaaaah.
so i always lock myself in the room.
go to sleep only when they're asleep.

nationals starting tmrw
against Pasir Ris Crest!
thn Yio Chu Kang and MGS.
omaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan.
it's gonna be tough.
ahah anyway i feel like ive gotten closer to the netballers..
nice.

ahhh and yes i'm so glad that i have him after going through so much.
never expected it.. never<3

ahaha time flies.
really.
can't wait for exams to be ovvvverrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
oh shittt i think i better get my ass down to some serious work.

2006-01-23T19:36:00.000+08:00

23rd jan.

TIS' THE SEASON TO BE JOLLY FALALALALALA LA LA LALA.
omg this line has been like, stuck in my head since first block this morning.
we had our first netball match of the year tday and im soooo glad we won.
haha yay. next match against cedar's gonna be so much tougher. rawr. tday was damn freaking hot. started out like nice and cooling and cloudy thn i thought no need to put sunblock but the sun had to come out like.. whn we started our first quarter! you have no idea how much sunblock i applied aft that.. I DONT WANNA GET SKIN CANCER MAN HAHA.

OH i PREDICT i'm gonna die.. of either
diabetes - omg you have no idea how much tiff scares me all the time about eating too much campino and strawberry vitaC.
kidney failure - i think my kidneys are weak. i dont know? ohgosh i dont wanna waste my money on kidney transplants,man.
car accident - i am trying to cut down on jaywalking alr :]
SKIN cancer(most likely) or any other forms of cancer - im getting A LOT of freckles here there everywhere and i get burnt so easily and badly. im not that healthy.
suicide/depression - oh i read somewhere.
Whilst suicide tends to run in families, it is not hereditary. thank God. haha i am not making a joke outta it.

brenda was damn poor thing aft the match. her tummyache! i had like diarrhea in schl lah tday. 4 timesss to the loooo and i felt so weak aft that. haha thn T.H.N was like saying what i passed it on to brenda NYENYEH. she IS irritating. other than just ANNOYING me, she 'instructs' my pe teacher to annoy me too.
pe today was fun. tennis. though i cant hit the ball for Futs. BUT BUT BUT THATS CAUSE I MISSED THOSE TENNIS LESSONS ON THE BASICS OKAY hahah. and i'm NOT gonna elaborate man HAHAH. basically we were just chasing aft balls, but its not like we're that bad LAH. at least we managed to keep a short game going! ame amuses me with the way she catches the tennis balls. TIFF MAKES A GOOD TENNIS PLAYER I THINK ! -GASPS. YAYA RUNS AFTER MY BALLS HAHAHAHA AND I CANT SERVE FOR FUTS
im just an ass who's full of shit bye!

2006-01-17T16:13:00.000+08:00

jan 17th.

oh man.
all of a sudden i feel like I HATE THIS BLOG.
i think i do. but i don think you need to know that.
bye.

2006-01-16T23:11:00.000+08:00

16th jan

rah cant believe i sprained my ankle just two weeks before the netball comp starts!
im annoyed.
i removed some of my previous entries...... rah. life really sucks ALMOST all the time except ...
night im doing bio.

2006-01-13T21:58:00.000+08:00

13th january

"Tiger Lily"

we drive tonight,
and you are by my side.
We're talking about our lives,
like we've known each other forever.
the time flies by,
with the sound of your voice.
its close to paradise,
with the end surely near.
and if i could only stop the car
and hold onto you,
and never let go (and never let go)
i'll never let go (i'll never let go)
as we round the corner
to your house
you turned to me and said,
"i'll be going through withdrawal of you
for this one night we have spent"
and, i want to speak these words
but i guess i'll just bite my tongue,
and accept "someday, somehow"
as the words that we'll hang from.

and i (i..), i don't want to speak these words.
'cause i ('cause i..), i don't want to make things any worse.
and i (i..), i don't want to speak these words.
'cause i, i don't want to make things any worse.

why does tonight, have to end?
why don't we hit restart,
and pause it at our favorite parts.
we'll skip the goodbyes.
if i had it my way,
i'd turn the car around and runaway,
just you and i.

and i (i..), i don't want to speak these words.
'cause i ('cause i..), i don't want to make things any worse. (any worse)
and i (i..), i don't want to speak these words
'cause i, i don't want to make things
and i, i don't want to make things any worse

2006-01-02T18:12:00.000+08:00

i have a sudden urge for the 2006 netball seasonnnnnnn to start!!!!!!!!

2006-01-02T15:40:00.000+08:00

2nd Jan

omg school's reopening tmrw
and i'm TOTALLY dreading it like crap
soooo annoyingggggg our classroom's like gonna be on the 4th level,
which means every grouchy morning will get worse and even grouchier and tiring aft climbing the bloody steps..
rahhh
anyway joseph woke me up with a call this morn
asking me to go escape!!!!!!!!!!!!
okay actually a (tiny) part of me wanted to go.
but i just couldnt open my eyeeees and so i told him that ive not finished my hwk
haha. it doesnt even matter.ytd i talked to him until 4 la
and he woke up so early!!!
okay fine not early.. it was 130 alr.
uhmmmm rah anyway i think i have a mild case of mental problems.
it's my dark secret.
there, i told you.

bye.

Falling in love is like falling off a
building it dosent hurt till the end.

2006-01-01T23:01:00.000+08:00

The only true painful good-byes are the
ones that are never said and never
explained.

2006-01-01T22:58:00.000+08:00

Love is when at 2:30 AM you wake up
hoping that your dream was reality.

2006-01-01T22:11:00.000+08:00

JANUARY FIRST TWO THOUSAND AND SIX!!!!!!!!!!!

got this from an email from jesu some time ago.. just saw it in my inbox so decided to share it :] touching..... my ass.
just read :D hahah

A certain rich businessman had a beautiful daughter, who fell in love with a guy who works as a cleaner. When the girl's father came to know about their love, he did not like it at all, and so began to protest about it. Now it happened that the two lovers decided to leave their homes for a happy future. The girl's father started searching for the two lovers but could not find them.

At last, he accepted their love and asked them to come back home in a local newspaper. Her father said "If you both come back I will
allow you to marry the guy you love, I accept that you loved each other truly". So in this way, their love won and they returned homes. The couple went to town to shop for the wedding dress. He was dressed in white shirt that day. While he was crossing the road to the other side to get some drinks for his fiance, a car came and hit him and he died on the spot. The girl lost her senses.

It was only after some times that she recovered from her shocked.
The funeral and cremation was the very next day because he had died horribly.

Two nights later, the girl's mother had a dream in which she saw an old lady. The old lady asked her mother to wash the blood stains of the guy from her daughter's dress as soon as possible. But her mother ignored the dream.

The next night her father had the same dream, he also ignored it.
Then when the girl had the same dream the next night, she woke up in fear and told her mother about the dream. Her mother asked her to wash the clothes which have blood stains immediately. She washed the stains but some remained.
Next night she again had the same dream she again washed the stains but some still remained.

Next night she again had the same dream and this time the old lady gave her a last warning to wash the blood stain, or else something terrible will happen. This time the girl tried her best to wash the stains, and the clothes nearly tore, but stains still remained. She was very tired. In the late evening the same day while she was alone at home, someone knocked the door. When she opened the door she saw the same old lady of her dream standing at her door.

She got very scared and fainted.

The old lady woke her up..., and gave her an blue object, which shocked the girl. She asked "What is this..? " The old lady replied... "Try Dynamo Liquid Soap... just a dab and it will remove all stubborn stains!!!"

2005-12-31T17:38:00.000+08:00

DECEMBER 31ST

this song is so nice and sweet :]
counting the stars - Waking Ashland!

Please tell me you're for real
Because I don't want to bleed no more
As the night fades away
I'm dreaming of you
Please tell me you feel something
Because what I feel is ecstacy
Oh shame on you
You cast your spell on me

La da da da
The stars align for you and I tonight
La da da da
I need you in my life
La da da da
The stars align for you and I tonight
La da da da
I'll take that as a sign

I'm so unprepared
But you don't seem to care
I'm hardly a man
But here I am
I'm not sure what you see
'cause what I am is disaster
Spring you came so early
Shine down on me

So hold on to me
(caught up in the moment)
Because I don't want to lose you
(people think I'm crazy)
I don't want to become a memory
(ring around the roses she has me blushing)
So hold on to me
You're a million miles away
But I am still the same as yesterday

I need you
I miss you

2005-12-30T13:12:00.000+08:00

30th december

yesterday was the worst day EVER
fuck it man
RAHHHHHHHHHH
jiayi like lost her phone
i got screwed over the phone so many times
IM SUPER WHINYYY AND ANNOYED NOW.
but it couldnt have been worse than ytd.
fuck fuck fuck yesterday!
I WANNNA GOOOO ON SATURDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
KJASDGO
I AM DAMN FUCKING ANNOYED FUCK FUCK FUCKRAJKHFSDKJGHSJK

anyway you should listen to cross my heart by the rocket summers
it sounds awful at first
and also if looks could kill by the heartwell ending

-whineeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeees! ):

2005-12-27T22:49:00.001+08:00

27th December 2005

Year 2006, here i come!
Im packing my things, getting ready for the new year
HAHA :]
It's like i'm quite excited about the coming new year
but at the same time dreading it like f--------

I'm gonna be a super mugger next year,
so those things that are gonna get in my way
MOVE!
okayfinei'mlying.
I'm still gonna attend parties next year.
I'm already planning to go for one.
27th January at DXO.
okay okay okay party, here i come!:P
but but but i will also work hard and transform into SuperMuggerGillian

Thus i'm gonna arrange my books right now,
then maybe after that i'll start with the chemistry holiday hwork.
rawwrrr.
SO annoying.
but i can't stand my layout already.
so i'm gonna change it first. haha.

i'm so glad i made a lot of new friends this hols,
and grew closer to the netballers.
and i'm thankful for that :]

I'll take care of you
Have faith that when you call my name
I'll be there
I'll be right there
So keep breathing on
Keep that sweet heart of yours beating
And I'll be there
I'll be right there
I'll be right there

2005-12-24T13:15:00.000+08:00

DECEMBER 24th!

CLUBBING IS FUN.
HELPS YOU BURN CALORIES I SWEAR.
YAY QUIT MY JOB ALR. I'LL MISS
BERNARD JOSEPH YIWAN MICHELLE EVELYN JASONKOH HAHAHAHAH
JASONWONG HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
KAILING RIDZWANNNNN CHUN HIAN!!!! HAHAHA
I THINK IM GNG CRAZY
I KNOW IVE NOT ENOUGH SLEEP
CAUSE I ONLY SLEPT AT 7AM THIS MORNING
GOOD NIGHT

ANYWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYY
HAPPY XMAS AND A MERRY NEW YR EVERYONEEEEE !

2005-12-22T19:20:00.000+08:00

22nd December 2005

blink 182 - Going Away To College is so sweet.

Please take me by the hand
It's so cold out tonight
I'll put blankets on the bed
I won't turn out the lights
Just don't forget to think about me
And I won't forget you
"I'll write you once a week," she said

Why does it feel the same
To fall in love or break it off?
And if a young love is just a game
Then I must have missed the kick-off
Don't depend on me
To ever follow through on anything but
I'd go through Hell for you and

I haven't been this scared, in a long time
And I'm so unprepared
So here's your Valentine
Bouquet of clumsy words
A simple melody
This world's an ugly place
But you're so beautiful to me

I think about the times
She kissed me after class and
She put up with my friends
I acted like an ass
I ditched my lecture
To watch the girls play soccer
Is my picture
Still hanging in her locker?

I haven't been this scared
In a long time
And I'm so unprepared
So here's your Valentine
Bouquet of clumsy words
A simple melody
This world's an ugly place
But you're so beautiful..

I haven't been this scared
In a long time
And I'm so unprepared
So here's your Valentine
Bouquet of clumsy words
A simple melody
This world's an ugly place
But you're so beautiful..

2005-12-15T23:24:00.000+08:00

dec 15th

some random facts about MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE...

i am totally totally toTALLY in love with fruit tree fresh mango with nata de coco!

i havent gotten a bloody Q since last saturday.
i like prettyy jap boys.
i like guys with lip piercing.
i like sambal stingray!!!!
the last(first) time i drank i developed rashes.
i am gullible.
sometimes i wish my mama was still alive.
sometimes i feel lucky to have a stepmother.
sometimes i laugh to myself.
i like to bite people. hard.
i am feeling very itchy right now.
i want 19th and 21st dec to come.
i want to work hard for nexxt yr yay
i want to be madly in love with someone haha
i want to get a gpa of at least 3.4 next yr :sometimes i wish i was anorexic
i finally learnt how to fold paper hearts
i like the smell of flour with butter and like to eat it, unbaked.
i like to cut my nails
ive seen condoms which belong to ughhh.
i think my sister is a smart ass but i hate to say it :P
haiya i want to eat cake now bye.

2005-12-13T20:02:00.000+08:00

13th December :]

time goes by soo slowlyyyy
time goes by sooooo slowlyyyy
time goes by soo slowlyy
and no, im not singing madonna's hung up.

rahhhh ims o bored.
shouldve gone to work tday.
but thn again i'd prob scratch the hell outta myself if i went.
haha.
btw im feeling itchy all over cause ive developed rashes..
from hahahahah.
its the dumbest thing ever so im not gonna say it.

anyway. i slept over at jiayi's place on sunday night cause
we did smth wrong (had sex?).
thn whn i woke up i realised i had rashes all over (STD??)
hahah actually i plannned to go to the doctor alr
for my cough..
but i was damn lazy.
thn this STD came.
so i had to go LORRRRRRRRRRRRR.
aft that jiayi followed me home
changed showered and went out to bugis.
i spent a lot of money.
rah.
jia yi spent a lot too hhahaha.
its quite fun shopping with her.
cause we always do the finger thing
and ask each other to pick oneeeeeeeee

let me just summarize evrything i did this holiday :]
(in no special order)

1. gained wt and lost wt
2. netball training
3. found a job which im planning to quit soon (ive devised a great plan to quit :])
4. went clubbing for the first time omy! and still counting...........
5. coughed
6. broke jiayi's phone's voodoo doll's leg :]
7. bought a damn voodoo doll and hung it on my phone haha
8. drop my NANO
9. bought bubble gum from malaysia
10. bonded with carmen elaine jia yi nats kai qi and xinlei, but somehow talked less to ame gnia siewsiew yaya zhen teeeef
11. made new friends :D
12. developed rashes
13. bought nice charm bracelets <3
14. bought a pair of jeans
15. told lies
16. changed shampoo to LOREAL antifrizz. nice smelling <3
17. still thinking of the cranberry lotion from Body Shop <3
18. bought xmas cards which im too lazy to write
19. planning to buy xmas gifts for a few ppl only.. ):
20. planning to seellll things on xmas so i can earn more money yay
21. win joseph in pool!
22. bite jiayi
23. tease elaine about PADS (pun intended, elaine)
24. planned to get a lip piercing with gnia but most prob will not cause of my braces ):
25. navel piercing!
26. my mummy got a tattoo on her tummy! kickass mummy!
27. haven't started on rs
28. learn the art of hair waxing
29. do my first manicure/pedicure :p
30. MAKE MORE NEW FRIENDS MERRY XMAS! <3

2005-11-10T23:46:00.000+08:00

10th nov.

the mosquitoes at home are such dickheads
of all places they have to bite the tip of my toe?
and my sole?! arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh and these areas
are usually terribly horribly itchy and unscratchable.
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
im so sleepy and whiny
i need to get a life i have no life
currently, my life revolves around trng,
trying to finish this book (okay you got it its a thrashy novel, those who saw me reading weren't surprised at all :P), dance classes, and errr my bed and blanket.
oh i love the smell of my blanket
i know it sounds gross but i dont really give a shit
ahhhh love it.
im feeling all jellyishhh now.
had trng in the morning haha
it was pretty funnnnnnn
cause it wasnt hell
went for lunch with dad
dragged me to eat curry fishead..
aft that rushed home showered and went to mandarin hotel
did the photoshoot
omg the makeup was so thick
and disgusting that made me look like a bloody geylang prostitute
okay maybe not that bad
but anyway i hated it, kinda
and you wont believe how much concealer she used on this
BLOODY HUGE PIMPLE THAT POPPED UP JUST YTD!
ARGH.
so annoying
okay thn went to collect my track pants
.. thn came home AND READ MY STORYBOOK HAHA
fell asleep
woke up
went uan
for dance
hahah met addieeeeeeee
ahhhhh my exschlmate since p1
anyway, dance was fun
made new friends
and learnt new things
okay life kinda seems meaningful
thats cause i dont have to study
and i just have fun
that night i was just thinking
if i were to die (say, commit suicide)
i will kill those i hate before
dying
haha so rollyoureyesatme-able right.
rah wth
and i think that thought led me to a fucking nightmare
ITS LIKE SICK.
i always have nightmares
probably i can have a weekly section
on my blog about my nightmares/weird dreams.. etc
so interesting :)
but i was just thinking of closing down my blog so whtever
yeah back to the dream
i dreamt that i killed my cousin
and guess who was my accomplice?
MY DAD.
he actually persuaded me into killing.
okay wait thats not the best part
aft killing my cousin
i made her into a BIG TIN OF BROWNIES,
and they were soggy cause of her blood.
hah i am such a saddist.
anyway i think i gave those brownies to like
aunties.
thhey actually said it was nice but it was too soggy
so yeah.
and while my dad and i were making the brownies
in the FOREST?! we were caught by a tribe...
its so ridiculous right.
they were dancing at the water fall.
thn they heard us.
so they peeked.
thn my dad and i got caught in the end cuase
the tribe ppl went to report us?
haha and thn while i was running away from the police
i got shot twice on my back!
thn whn iw as about to die
i was sent to this weird hospital
OMG IT WAS DAMN WEIRD
it had like a wooden lift
which transported me straight to the doctor.
aiya dont know hw to say lah
thn anyway i really thought i was gona die
ithink i was smiling before i died
haha
and thn i actually lied on the doctor's table
to let her check me
thn the nurse like asked me to get onto the bed instead..
THN I WOKE UP.
but somehow i was supposed to go to jail aft i recovered?
thn i was damn scared for my dad.
i think i almost cried
but i woke up.
yay end.

2005-10-29T00:30:00.000+08:00

29th october!

hey you, young love.
don't let them cut out your tongue.
swallow the key to your heart and smile through your teeth.

uhm yes thats a picture.

i ate damn a lot today.
my maid fried meatballs!!!!! <333333
i cldn resist myself
so i ate a lot, of meatballs. and vegetables
lah i ate cheeese i ate err tau sar pia
hahah tau sar pia hahahaha
thn i ate two eggs
i ateeeeeeeeeeeeeeee err cant rmb

i get tired easily
i am tired from blogging those few lines
haha.
school wasnt even school lah
didnt even study
aft helping out for sec 1 nball carn
we dcided to skip the jazz workshop
and just went for the film. and know what we watched?!
garfield ._.
i was like slping doh
owww you know ive an ingrown fingernail and toe nail
thus you and i can conclude that i cant cut nails for nuts

and anyway sec 1 nball carn
i was in charge of shooting comp lah
like wth i didnt know how to dooooooo and screwed it for the first two clases hahaha.
mrs linda lim was like damn nice about it. made me feel even worse.
thn came ms hai nee.
aiya i also dont feel like talking abt it i feel so embarrassed.
and that mr ong keeps suaning me for nuts
its quite funny but irritating!!
i like nball carnivals cause i get to drink free cold milo
also cause i get to sit at my "seat of power" quotes silei
hahaha i loooove helping out at the scoring table
cause its so simple and slack! :)
and silei will calculate so fast
thn i can challenge myself also |:
right
wah my ingrown fingernail very pain i dont wanna blog alr
NIKEEEE TRNG WAS OKAAAAAY :D
ITS NIKE FUN DAY TMRW
vivien said "see slope run slope see stairs run stairs..etc"!
my ingrown toenaaaaaaail will kill me
bye!

>>>EDIT
okay i cant believe i forgot to blog about this
today smth kinda pissed me off
i was watching MILLION DOLLAR MURDER on starmovies today
its based on a true story about this rich dude
who got murdered
and the prime suspects were his wife and her lover.
they started off very sweet (sooo typical)
thn the woman actually had a bit of mental illness
so in the end she separated with her husband
and brought her two kids
and had an electrician as her new lover
and yeah she extorted the rich dude of his money
but he really loved her
im bad at telling 'stories' aint i
hahahahahaha
WELL ANYWAY MY POINT IS
THE WHOLE MOVIE WAS TO FIND OUT WHO THE DAMN MURDERER WAS
AND THEY ONLY REVEALED IT DURING THE LAST 5 MIN OF THE MOVIE
AND IT SO HAPPENED THAT I HAD STOMACHE DURING THE LAST 5 MIN OF THE MOVIE
SOOOOOOOO WHN I CAME OUT OF THE TOILET THE MOVIE HAD ALREADY ENDED
SO I WATCHED THE WHOLE MOVIE
WITHOUT FINDING OUT THE MOST IMPT DETAIL ._.
i got so pissed i was screaming like hell
but the gd thing was that my maid watched the last part
AND TOLD ME THE LOVER KILLED THE RICH DUDE YAY.

2005-10-27T23:18:00.000+08:00

october 27thhhhhhhh

okay okay, so i should start blogging properly
HAHA I just told jeremy i cursed him.
the curse is that he would fuck around till his dick rots
CAUSE HE KEEPS SHOWING ME DISGUSTING EMOTICONS.
stupid assssssssssss
but i have decided to lift the curse cause
he has promised never to do it again

anyway nothing can be worse than tday
my results are so depreeeeeessssssssing
i mean like i was hoping my eoys would pull up my midsem's marks
but instead im like hoping my midsem's marks can pull up my eoys marks!!!
...
i failed chem by one (Fucking) mark
i just passed math (i have tuition for goodness sake!)
i passed physics
i just passed history (i seriously thought i was gonna get a single digit, upon 30)
rah rah rah rah rah
now i dont know what to tell my dad
im tryin to avoid him
but hes gonna fetch me t schl tmrw morning
and hes gonna see me
and hes gonna talk to me
which means hes gonna ask me
which means i dont know how to answer
which means hes gonna get disappointed
which means I CANT TELL HIM!
WHICH MEANS I HAVE TO AVOID HIMMMMMMMMM AND PRETEND TO SLP IN THE CAR! okay i will slp.
well anyway aft schl went to get black pants
ame got a gay peeenk sweatpants
nice.
OKAY IM LOSING CONCENTRATION
I THINK I'LL STOP BLOGGING
MY NAILS HURT.

MY MOOD IS SO BLOOOOOOOOOOODY ANNNNNNNOYING

2005-10-26T20:00:00.000+08:00

october 26th ):

I AM DAMN FUCKING SAD.

2005-10-15T01:58:00.000+08:00

15th october.
give them hell.

dont know why im even in this world when i know im going to die anytime
dont know why im even studying when i know im going to die
dont know why i even bother hiding
dont know why this is happening to me
dont know why things are like that
dont know why im even thinking about this
i swear i do treasure things in life.

2005-10-06T18:05:00.000+08:00

octoBERRRRRR daaaaaaa sixth.

immobilized by the thought of you
paralyzed by the sight of you
hypnotized by the words you say
not true but I believe them anyway

arhhh. everyone's exams are ending this week.
but ours haven even started!
i hope i wont screw it up
like how ive scewed some things up
..
anyway i brought peanuts to school today
i cracked all of em myself!
and evveryone around me LIKED THE PEANUTS
bet its cause i cracked them :D
now i have a fetish for cracking peanuts
and im so pissed off with the stupid ulcer on my tongue!
like wth i had to stupid-ly bite the side of my tongue when i sneezed
so sickening cant stand it cant stand it cant stnad it.
i hate the relief chi tchr
CAUSE SHE HATES ME TOO
IRRITATING TCHR WHO KEEPS CALLING ME HONG HONG
AND THINKS ITS FUNNY
she thinks im a lesbian.
she thinks amelene erm.. touches herself (masturbate?) in class :D
she loves nicole the prefect.
she loves tiffany! (SHE GAVE HER AN EIGHTEEN UPON 20 FOR LETTER WRITING WHILE I GOT 10 UPON 20 AND I USUALLY GET HIGHER THAN TEEEEEEEF OMG WHADDAN ASS TCHR! anyway i rmb all of us were cursing the tchr while tryna write the letter, look whose fault:))
okay i hate the teacher
but i do pity her.
THATS WHY I BOTHERED TO KEEP THE SMALL BOOK SHE GOT FRM THE TEMPLE.
arh. i hate myself.

okay okay i am FINALLY buying my nike shoes on saturday.
finally finally and i wont have to wear soleless and squeaky shoes anym!

2005-10-02T16:25:00.000+08:00

"I Won't See You Tonight Part 1" a7x

Cry alone, I've gone away
No more nights, no more pain
I've gone alone, took all my strength
I've made the change,
I won't see you tonight

Sorrow, sank deep inside my blood
All the ones around me
I cared for and loved

Building up inside of me
A place so dark, so cold, I had to set me free
Don't mourn for me,
You're not the one to place the blame
As bottles call my name I won't see you tonight

Sorrow sank deep inside my blood
All the ones around me
I cared for and most of all I loved
But I can't see myself that way
Please don't forget me or cry while I'm away

So far away, I'm gone.
Please don't follow me tonight
An while I'm gone everything will be alright

No more breath inside
Essence left my heart tonight
No more breath inside
Essence left my heart tonight

this song is so fucking depressing and freaks the hell outta me.
and its 8minutes long mind you, but i like it):

2005-09-30T22:57:00.000+08:00

life has been so fucked up.
well at least mine is.
dont even know who to trust anymore

2005-09-28T22:09:00.000+08:00

SEPTEMBER 28TH

sex is a sensation,
caused by a temptation,
a guy sticks his location,
in a girls destination,
to increase population,
for the next generation,
do u get my explanation,
or do u need a demonstration?

O I FEEL HORNY
NEEENEEENEEEE
(.\/.)
wheres angel!!!
ALL FIFI'S FAULT
damn history essay

2005-09-25T20:07:00.000+08:00

What is your name? Gillian
Where were you born? here
Where do you live now? here
What color eyes do you have? brown not exactly dark not exactly light
What color hair do you have? dark brown?
How tall are you? taller/shorter than you ):
What is your worst fear? nightmares that come true
Do you smoke? n-o.
Do you drink? n-o
Do you cuss? lets just say. whn i have/want to.
Do you use drugs? n-oooooo
Have you ever or will you ever steal? yes/yes
Are you dependable and/or trustworthy? yes
Do you play in a band or play an instrument? no
Do you have any tattoos and/or piercings? piercings
Do you suffer from depression disorder? soon
If you had a choice about how you wanted to die what would it be? suicide; and i think slitting wrists
Have you ever tried to commit suicide? .. no.
Are you evil? maybe
Do you ever get jealous of somebody else? yes
Do you take your anger out on other people? yes
Do you blame other people for your mistakes? no
What is your favorite game? maybe in time to come, sex! HA. okay fine i was kidding (who knows!) freecell.
What is your favorite movie? dont bother ranking
Who is your favorite band? TBS and.. yeah some other.
What is your favorite song? one of these. ABCDEFGHIJKLMNOPQRSTUVWXYZ
What kind of books and/or magazines do you read? cheeeekfleeeeekzzz. stupid lame magazines like seventeens
What is your favorite color? think PINK red black silver green orange purple
What is your favorite food? everything
What is your favorite drink? dont know
Do you masturbate? no
Do you like meeting new people? I THINK SO, yes im friendly
What do you like most about life? nothing
What do you dislike most about life? everything especially hypocrites
Do you believe in love at first fright? yeah think so haha
Have you ever pierced a body part yourself? no
Have you been to jail, yet? no never,man.
Have you ever been kicked out of your parents house? almost
Have you ever been fired from your job because of your attitude? nooooo dont even have a job.

2005-09-20T16:54:00.000+08:00

sept 20th

So how can we find ourselves
Trapped in our own private hells
Where we just scream but no one can hear
'X' marks the spot where the dig begins
The treasure is found within
The broken hearts that are soaked with fear.

To be at one with all your life

hahahaha mtv whateevr things is so funny.
big black cock and the stupid bride.
okay whatever.
im blogging again cause my hair has grown,
okay.

i'm depressed cause i have yet to think of crazy things to take part in the whatever contest to win so that ame and i can fly over to new york and co-host with EDISON CHEN!!!!!
i'm depressed cause i have not taken my afternoon nap.
i'm annoyed cause im not done with my philo journal, physics pt and chinese zuo wen and research studies.
i'm depressed cause of trivia things in life.
i'm lifeless cause im blogging

2005-09-17T22:01:00.000+08:00

sept 17th

rah it just gets worse.

i won't forget the day that
that I came to
and I started thinking
that there is more
than just perfect prom queens, and silver spoons

and all I ever wanted
was someone to knock me back to the bliss of ignorance
cause I feel like running head first into traffic..

And so Im here to say..
that thoughts in bed with pain

I won't forget the day that
that I found god..
in a kitchen knife now, and on my arm..
so paint the pale white floor with
with my red life

And tell me that this pain is
the pain I love
as i swallow the pills of happiness
and you watch me fall like New York in an earthquake

And so im here to say
that thoughts in bed with pain

I stand outside, my pretty house
I light a match, to start the fire..
I called the cops, to let em' know
its 22 walthery Ave.

I thought, I wanted this...
I thought, I wanted this...

im here to say
I said I wanted, some more attention..
I thought I wanted, a story ending..
I just can't win...
I think that the truth is Im scared..
I think that Im just scared to live
I think that the truth is
Im everything that I hate

2005-09-16T20:17:00.000+08:00

sept 16th.

im so glad that physics and ss tests are finally over.
and thn theres still philoooo and physics performance task
i swear school is crap

anyway,
I THINK KAHLEN'S SO PRETTTYYYYYYYYY.

OKAY OKAY PRETTY PRETTY.

im so sleepy where is dadddyyy.
hes not picking up my call which means hes not picking me up from ameeeeees house which means i am gonna be kidnapped by ame which means i cant go home which means i cant sleep which means im gonna have black eyes which means im gonna get depressed which means im gonna get fucked up and fucked up and fucked up and fucked up.zzzzzz

yay ame's gonna straighten my hair while i blog.

okay ss was fucking screwed at the end cause i needed to pee so urgently while i was only at my third point. irritating, i was hoping that the paper would end quickly so i could empty my bloody bladder. but thn i wasnt done with my paper so i was hoping the paper wouldnt end so soon. raaah so i ended up with a fucked up conclusion yay my entry is full of profanities.

okay yay my hair's straight, almost done :)

yeah then aft schooool shiya ame and i took bus to toa payoh. hahaha ate mos burger and made friends with the FLY and got high. cause i bought a packet of 1dollar mint plus from the value shop. haha shiya was being crappy as usual. aft lunch went INSTITUTE OF MENTAL HEALTH IMH OKAAAY. even the cab driver asaid the abbreviation was very.. high class. and we lied to him that we were visiting a friend. thn we told him we were kidding. then we told him again that we were gonna go there to do voluntary work, like changing bedsheets.
THN WE TOLD HIM WE WERE KIDDING CAUSE WE DIDNT KNOW WHAT TO DO.
rah.
hahah anyway we went there to take ppl's heart rate.
as in not thosee people living there but the staff
hahah 30bucks for like less than 3 hours ):
okay okay im gonna play jenga? with ame.

OOH YEAH IM DONE STRAIGHTENING MY HAIR CAUSE
sept 12th super super bad hair day.
sept 13th super bad hair day.
sept 14th very bad hair day.
sept 15th. pretty bad hair day.
sept 16th bad hair day.
tmrw will be a better day.
till then, im gonna blog when my hair grows longer.

2005-09-11T16:01:00.000+08:00

sept 11th

okay, kinda surprised that people still read this thingggg.
SO YEAH

HAPPY 15TH BELATED BIRTHDAY DEEE DEEEEEEE :D JUST ONE MORE YEAR TO LEGAL SEX AGEEEE!!

p.s are you reading this, dee? :D

2005-09-07T16:55:00.000+08:00
sept 7th.

pmsing pmsing pmsinggggggggggggggggggzzzzz..
rahhhhhhhh piss off buggers.

im so annoyed.
i hate vf ):

2005-09-06T23:33:00.000+08:00
sept 6th.

HAHA IM GAY,
WE GOT INTO ZOUK.

2005-09-04T17:50:00.000+08:00
september 4th.

just added a new post to my hate blog.

kinda sleepy right now.
i feel like eating tuna fish.
cause sunday's a good day to eat tuna fish.
zhens ditching me on tuesday.

we're catching the penguin thing tmrw..!
rah dont know what im doing here i shall bug off.

ooh yeah ame msged me this morning and told me that she beat my high score for gem game!!!!
BUT ITS OKAY CAUSE I BEAT IT AGAIN JUST NOW. HAHAHAHAHA.

while waiting for her msg to tell me that she has beaten my top score again, i shall go practise :)

2005-09-03T20:43:00.000+08:00
3rd Sept 2005

RAOOOOOW.
im damn bloody annoyed.
my house is so noisyyyyyyy.
i'm like listening to my songs on the computer and thn in the background theres like "MARY HAD A LITTLE LAMB MARY HAD A LITTLE LAMB" ITS DAMN ANNOYING. THN MY MAID IS WATCHING TV.
..............

i had a nightmare again last night!
ARGH.
i dreamt that there were bombs,
at esplanade!
and i was like.. trying out green clothes in esplanade?
with i cant rmb who. and thn we were suddenly told to evacuate the place.
hahahaha.
thn a lot of ppl got outta esplanade but just stood right outside esplanade?!
so whn it exploded all of them got killed.
and there were those who didnt evacuate in time. they died too.
BUT.i managed to escape in time! SOMEHOW I WAS THE ONLY ONE who ran to the building nxt to esplanade. and whn it exploded i didnt get killed? oh wait. ir mb. there was a security guard in the building i ran to!! he was like sitting down and eating at the table.
thn anyway, i was like barefooted.
and i dont know how come there were a lot of shattered glass pieces everywhere.
so as i was running i got cut and i started bleeding thn i cant rmb what happened aft that.

my nightmare the night before ytd had smth to do with a ghost.
cant exactly rmb.. can only rmb that the ghost's face was like.. imprinted on my sofa..
thn i quickly went to bed to slp cause i was so scared.
thn i needed to pee. so i jumped off my DOUBLEDECKER BED and i wasnt hurt at all?
the good thing about dreams is that you dont feel the pain, like whn i got cut by the shattered pieces of glass.
anyway, aft i jumpedd off my bed i felt so scared, i had goosebumps. and i think they were real!
yah thn i went to the toilet.. switched on the light, saw a fucking hand stick outta the toilet and waved to me and called my name. i started screaming and SWITCHED OFF THE LIGHT AND WENT BACK TO BED. THN POOF I WOKE UP IT WAS 533AM IN THE MORNING.

the nxt time i woke up was at 658am. i was so bloody flustered but i wasnt late for schl. cause i took a cab, and mind you the cab fare was $6.20!!!!!! rah. i hate schl. bye.

prase the Lord, school's out! :)
went ame's house aft schl on friday.
caught love actually.
i think hugh grant is soo.... i dont know.
i have a THING for him, k fine not tHING THING.
hes one of my favourite actors lah. haha and yes the boy is cute lah

AHH cant wait for wicker park on star movies.

anyway we've printed (FINALLY!) our RS survey..
on body modification.
those who have piercings and/or tatoos please help to do thank you very much :)

hahahaha i downloaded a game on my phone.
gem game 0o
haha i was trying so hard to beat ame's top score!!!!
AND I DID. hahaha.
oh and pixie is really cute. she likes to lick my hair and i like to touch her ears.
fair enough.
bye :)
and i still wanna go out with siew.
haha cant wait to go 'sweet'
MY SISTER IS STILL LISTENING TO MARY HAD A LITTLE LAMB ARGH

2005-08-22T01:32:00.000+08:00
OHH NOOOOZ. change of role!
im the condom.

2005-08-22T01:23:00.000+08:00
220805

oh hello :)
im like, motivated to blog aft reading gnia's SOOOCALLEDPRIVATE blog and profile.
motivated to blog, just so to show her that her bestie's so so so much more innocent and less bitchy than her :)
haha anyway no one said being bitchy was a bad thing
WHOOOOPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. no school tmrw.
wth man ive been trying to mug for the whole day tday.
BUT i only ended up studying less than one chapter of bio.
and i have like 4more big chapters to go.
oh this is so sad ):
im so screwed

hahah anyway i think making new friends is so fun.
hahahaha
i am so in love with singing westlife songz.
sooo in love.
okay i think im going to be gnia's porn movie's director, ta!

2005-08-14T18:03:00.000+08:00
14th AUGUST 2005

chuwen is right, i should blog.

Your lungs have failed and they both stopped breathing
my heart is dead and its way past beating
something has gone terribly wrong
i'm scared, you're scared, we're scared of this
i never thought we'd make it out alive
i never told you but its all in your goodbyes
it's all in your goodbyes

have i told you im addicted to the song nymphetamine!
nooooooooooooooooooo.
its nice but its kinda sad that its satanic.
spch day rehearsal was damn boring i was like
slping whn others were going on stage..
luckily we could leave early cause of pesta sukan
yeahh went for lunch thn cabbed down to knc
hahah i was being a bread freak
ate like 2 and 3/4 breads (cause i cldnt finish the last bread) at a go.
all three teams in the aftnoon got into 2nd round anyway!
have to go back like on 27th.. zzzz
we've got the stupid physics trip to escape
dont feel like going for either
im such a wet blanket
nyehnyeh
the carnival was quite fun
got kinda annoyed during the game cause it was so freaking hot
I LOVEEEEEEE MY SUNBLOCK
hahahah for the first time in history
i applied sunblock after each game ytd!
and now, TADAAAAAAA IM HARDLY BURNT
but my dried scalp is shedding from last week's carnival!
cos i didnt put much sunblock.
and btw the scalp is gross.
its like a big piece with many holes cause of my hair pores!
DAMN IT its sick
and ytd my hair was so itchy.
thn xinlei they all kept asking me to stop scratching
cause the dried scalp was like falling off blahblah
and it was really sick
so i wore my cap to prevent myself from scratching
and more scalp to shed
whatever
i think my team (rgs barricade?!) played well ytd!
haha xinlei was like complaining how tired she was.
i couldnt stop complaining how hot it was.
yeahhh kinda bonded with the sec 2s and sec 1s
oh im such a friendly snr
OOOOOHHHH MY! have you watched jessica simpson's
'these boots are made for walking' vid?
shes like helllll hotttttttt.
HER BODY IS DAMNNNN HOT.
i like the vid :D
i feel pervertic hahahahah

anyway tday was supposed to go out with siew
and i wanna go out one okay.
but i decided to stay home and do work.
yeah right i havent gottten any done yet.
i cant wait to go out with her!
haven seen her in ages
okay ta ta
damn it jessica simpson's so hot!!!!

2005-08-07T18:14:00.000+08:00
7TH AUGUST 2005

ARGHHH. it's damn hot.
STUPID SUNNN.
IM BURNT.
pesta carnival was quite fun, like surprisingly
kinda dreaded having to wake up so freaking early on a sunday morn .. zzz
but it was worth it lah! GASP
I FEEL THE PASSION FOR NETBALL, DO YOU.
THE PASSION IS SOOOO STRONG THAT IT HAS BURNT OFF THE SOLES OF MY NIKE SHOES :D
yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay
BIO PT IS OVER.
SO IS HISTORY PT.
SO ARE MATH AND SS TESTS.
theres still chinese performance task, history test, bio test, ANOTEHR SS TEST, and whatever. chemistry practical RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
hmm haven blogged for so long.
im feeling so good today.
hahahahahaha
oh yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
bye i'll probably not blog again for a long time
cause this blog is useless and it sucks yeah whtever BYE

2005-07-12T20:35:00.000+08:00
12th JULY 2005

pfft. gc's concert's tday!
tiff was tempting me with the ONE free ticket. haha.
funny. pretended to be pissed at her tday and made her buy me a drink for lunch
HAWWWWWWWW =)

You scored as Prep/Jock/Cheerleader.
Prep/Jock/Cheerleader
75%
Goth
44%
Stoner
31%
Drama nerd
25%
Ghetto gangsta
25%
Punk/Rebel
19%
Loner
19%
Geek
13%

What's Your High School Stereotype?
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hooohoooohoooo im not a GEEK =) so cool i am a gothic wannabe.

2005-07-11T22:38:00.000+08:00
11th July 2005

im writing this long and painful chinese zuo wen.
which i can never seem to finish writing ):
but i know i can do it!!
cause im listening to jay chouuuu hahahahah
and i almost dieeeed during trng this aftnoon pfft.
almighty ms chng comes back!

2005-07-10T20:13:00.000+08:00
10th July 2005

i'm so naughty!
i downloaded chinese songs to listen..
TO MAKE ME SAD ):

how i hate friendster's horoscope.
RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH.

2005-07-08T23:20:00.000+08:00
8th July 2005

i want you to know that
i miss you
i miss you so

eeeks sooo gheeey.
drinking mango and natadecoco drink now.
its so weird.
my maid is so considerate!!
tday she went ntuc and bought MORE mochis!:D
hah so now i have mochis to eat alr.
anyway im so sleepy.
all the excitment i felt in the afternoon
has drained away almost all of my energy.
ALL THE EXCITMENT IN THE AFTNOON :)
haha
aft schl went town.
gnia the commoner left after buying smth common
hahahaahah
sorry.
oh and she owes me 50c.
she claims that aft she becomes the principal
she will pay me back 50c sense of happiness..
thn zhen and i walked around!
tried clothes..
aft that we got bored of far east
so went to heeren. and thn cineee
and thnn... we walked past CENTREPOINT.
:) hahahahahahahahahhaha
and thn went to ps. thn i started
shaking zhen.
im the stupid shaker.
that stupid girl dropped her pouch
and said that i was the one who made hr drop
it cause i shaked her.pfft.
fortunately this kind scary indian old lady
picked it up.. and returned to zhen :)
awww yummy.
nights.
pool tmrw!
oh yeah. we were both impulsive today.
i bought two things.
zhen bought a pouch from mueee.
and.. that 15 bucks thing.
we both had the time of our lives
using our NETS cards and typing our
pin numbers on those soft buttons.
so soft...
hahahahaha im so happy.
PFFT. but my phone aint BEEPING.
-DIES

2005-07-06T19:14:00.000+08:00
6th July 2000005.

HAHA HIII. im damn happy today.
but i willl be even happier at night..
IF SMTH HAPPENS.
:D :D :D
ho ho ho.
HOHOHOHOHOHOHO
-looks at gnia and ghEeegUrLx :)

im sleeeeeepy.
pffffft.
changed seats today.
zajian.

2005-07-03T19:12:00.000+08:00
3rd July 200000005

caught HOW TO LOSE A GUY IN 10 DAYS JUST NOW.
it's nice.
damn it.
so sweet.
kate hudson's character is so cute. haha
uhhh i rmb the other movie LE DIVORCE..
was soooo boring.
and i think she acted in it.
rah.
ANYWAY TODAY IS A NICE DAY :)
hahahahahaha.
PFFT.
i hate dreams.
I HATE DREAMS.
-LOOKS AT AME AND ZHEN AND GNIA.
i just realised the pathetic state of my keyboard.
it's broken everywhere..
the stand the wrist rest..
i spilled water in it a few times..
(SURPRISINGLY IT STILL WORKS
AFT I SHOOK THE WATER OUT, LITERALLY)
and dripping/dropping other unknown substance
(such as watermelons) in it ):
rah i want a new keyboard.

2005-07-02T22:01:00.000+08:00
URGH.
zhen just told me some moron has a HATE BLOG TOO.
this moron happens to be one of those i linked.
stupid brainless disgusting idiot.
i shall scold you another time on MY HATE BLOG.

2005-07-02T21:10:00.000+08:00
2nd july 2005

shitty layouttttt.
i cant stand the other one.
anyway.
wth i had a dream that my
boyfriend was a bloody balding 65year old man!!!
FUCK.
i was crying like shit lah.
sdfjkghjkfghjkfdgkjdfhgjkf

i just ate mochis.
peach mochis are so niceeeeeeeeeeeee
raah.
had the blog workshop thing in the morn?
it was like.
waste of time.
but i learnt SOMETHING.
i learnt how to remove the navigation bar
and makee things disappear!!!!
HAHAHA.
went town tday to search for tattoo parlours for rs..
thn actually we only found tattoo parlours in fareast.
there were.. 4?
the first one we went to Exotic Tattoos
the guy was friendly :)
thn we went to the one next to it
someone fat inside was doing tattoo!
the ppl inside looked damn scary
so we just walked past it quickly
ERR thn went searching for the next one.
the one we always see.
they looked decent..
so yeah got a name card.
i didnt dare to go in
im such a chicken
and this is like my rs topic ._.
uhh anyway
zhen and gnia left for monster aft that.
thn ame and i continued searching.
haha and thn we walked around..
and DIGRESSED.
tried clothes instead.
hahahahahahah.
realised there were a few new shops that
had jsut opened in far east.
yeah its like.. cheap and lian.
and thn.
WE CONTINUED SEARCHING FOR THE LAST
TATTOO PARLOUR IN FAR EAST (I THINK)
and we found it!!
never knew it was there.
the place looked cool
BUT THE PEOPLE INSIDE WERE DAMN SCARY
ame and i were like so scared.
so we also walked past it damn quickly
the people inside like saw me looking in
so i just quickly look away.
hahaha but the place looked decent too!
I THINK WE SHOULD INTERVIEW THEM TOO.
in the end we decided to go heeren.
but before that we went taka first cause
ame wanted auntie anneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee's
and i wanted my pudding.
yeah thn i went a bit A BIT ku ku.
so we played a game.
we came up with a theme like..
"guys with caps"
and we were supposed to take as many
pictures of guys in caps as possible.
so the first round i won cause ame's phone
screwed up. hahahahah
OH YEAH. she dared me to stand on the
high "THING" (dont know whats it called)
the "THING" thats outside paragon.
she wanted me to embarrass myself
and take a picture of me.
now she owes me a pretezel.
oh yeah. shihlintaiwanstreetsnack's
egg crepe is soo yummy.
so is the XXL chicken hahah.
err thn went heeren to look for tattoo parlours too.
blah blah blah im lazy to blog
we also tried searching for CGs. but wth.
SOOOOOOOOOOOOO DIFFICULT
-STARES AT AME.
hahahahaha
RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
pmo.

2005-06-27T20:07:00.000+08:00
270605

HELLO.
listen to MY HUMP BY BLACK EYED PEAS.
ITS SUCH A CUTE SONG <3
HAHA.
first day of school really sucks
sleepy sleepy sleepy sleepy
well actually not really
teachers wasted time talking about how you spent the holidays ._.
haha. and
I HAVEN EATEN RECESS FOR A MONTH!!!!
i am a stupid anorexic bitch wannabe.
hahahahahah
yeah and thats cause i didnt go schl for a month.
EEEKS.
uhm then .. yeah i just realised i really
DIDNT do much during the hols.
and before the hols i was like..
so motivated to do well this semester
HAHHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.
waaaah talking abt schl makes me sleepy.
tiff said she has a resolution to not
sleep during lessons this semester
HAHAHAHAHAH TIFF GO AND DIE.
I AM NOT JOINING YOUUU.
STUPID GIRL WOKE ME UP WHN I WAS ABOUT TO SLEEP
siao. hahah!
tiff is so cute with her new SHORT fringe :)
anyway i have noticed an increase in the
number of people who just trimmed their eyebrows
and CUT BANGS/SHORT FRINGE and and second piercings!
gasp. lols. damn. pfft i need to pee.
so i'll buzz off now.
and pee. thn do WORK.
jolly!
LISTEN TO MY HUMP OKAAAAAAAAAY.
my hump my hump my hump my hump
my lovely lady lumps <3

2005-06-26T00:18:00.000+08:00
250605

oh HELLO HELLO
HELLOOOOO.
ME.
I, HAVE JUST SPENT
>5 MIN, < 10MIN
(i was doing math - inequalities)
in the bathroom
to brush my teeth!!!
hahahahaha
its damn CLEAN.
I MEAN REALLY CLEAN OKAY,
THOUGH ITS NOT.. WHITE.
now i feel like removing my braces.
and whiten my teeth
haha.
i think i brushed so much and hard
today cause i just changed the placing of my braces
.. and the color of it. so fun and matching.
matches with my jersey.
theres braces on all of my teeth i think
I THINK ITS DAMN FUNKY.
I WILL TAKE A PICTURE SOON
IF I REMEMBER.
anyway anyway
my point is that.
I SPENT >5MIN BUT <10MIN (estimated)
to brush my teeth :D
which i believe should be at its cleanest now!!!
.. okay fine i'll confess. i didnt floss.

I DID MATH TODAY
I DID MATH TODAY
I DID MATH TODAY
I DID MATH YTD
I DID MATH YTD
I DID MATH YTD

nike zoom played against u19s today..
won by 3 goals.
uhh i didnt get to play again
i musnt get discouraged
i musnt get discouraged
i musnt get discouraged
i want to gooo for u17 selections nxt year
and NOT get kicked out
cause i wanna get in ._.
please please please please
please ):
i dont wanna be discouraged too
please please please please please
I WANNA TRAIN HARD THIS YEAR.
okay right.
trng's like so slack now.

arghhhh I WISH I ISH
I WISH I WAS MRS EDISON CHEN (SORRY AME!)
/ MRS SHAWN YUE / MRS HEDEKI!!!!
OH PLEASEE.
im going to stick all their pictures on my wall
beside my bed and wish that i'd marry one of them one day.
cause apparently
KATIE HOLMES STUCK A POSTER OF TOM CRUSIE ON HER WALL
WHEN SHE WAS YOUNG HOPING TO MARRY HIM ONE DAY.
AND NOW THEYRE TOGETHER <3
OH EDISON SHAWN YUE AND HEDEKI.
im so wrong and pmsy ):

2005-06-23T22:26:00.000+08:00
230605

arghhhhhhhhhhhh
ITS ALMOST THE END OF HOLIDAYS
ALMOST THE END OF HOLIDAYS
ALMOST THE END OF HOLIDAYS
WAKE UP TO REALITY
THE CRUEL REALITY

anyway.
lost to blazeeee today.
yes the world is evil.
i almost had heartattack outside of court lah?
..
and GNIA LAHH.
GASP. she and her stupid dinner tmrw.
nvm.
haha im major pmsing.
ITS ALMOST THE END OF THE HOLIDAYS
ITS ALMOST THE ENDDD OF THE HOLIDAYS
ITS ALMOST THE ENDDDDDD OF THE HOLIDAYS!!!!
ciao

2005-06-21T23:19:00.000+08:00
210605

hellooooo :)
i love the rainy weather.
pfft holidays will be over soon
and i haven't finished my hol hwk.
oh JOLLY.
haha. morning woke up.
and found out why i had diarrhoea
its so horrible : dont wanna talk about it.
anyway went for sl.
nyehnyehnyeh finally got something done!
oh JOLLY.
then came homeee and slept again
aft that went to zhen's dental clinic to meet her
she took off her braces alr!!
oh JOLLY
she and her teeth are both so pretty.
i love her teeth! haha but i dont love her.
aft that cabbed down t ecp.
bought pita rollllllllll its so niceeeeeee
i wanna eat it for breakfast lunch and dinner
hahaha ;D
anyway went skatesports thn deeeeee came.
after putting on the skates
I KEPT THINKING THAT I WOULD FALL!
AND GUESS WHAT?
i didnt fall. hahahaha.
deee was laughing at meeeeee
we skated to bedok jetty
and as usual i was skating like a snail behind them
deee was nice to wait for mee
zhen wasnt so nice HAHA
haha my legs were so painnn
cause i cant skate properly
cause ive got a 'lanjiao' so i keep opening my legs
SO I CANT SKATE PROPERLY
._.
nyehnyehnyehhhh now i have two blisters
so damn pain lah.
hahah i hate little children
when im on skates.
i hate people on bicycles
when im on skates.
i hate slippery grounds or puddles of water
when im on skates.
i hate twigs and branches on the ground
whn im on skates.

thn i dont know what happened to me
i got highh when zhen and i were at the bus stop!
i love her teeth.
thn i took bus and went training.
during my netball training i trained.
and ran like shit cause of my blisters.
argh there are so many things to take note of
and im still quite blur on court.
so irritating but oh wellllll i still like to play.
haha im quite glad that im not that sick of nball anymore.

gnia whore and ame snoozer are finally back.
i like to bully zhen hahahahahahaha

listen to numberr five with a bullet by taking back sunday
buried a lie by senses fail
break myself by something corporate
sexy by balck eyed peas :)
the ghost of you by my chemical romance yay nights
oh and watch the mv of no sleep tonight by the faders
i like the lead singer shes so pretty!

2005-06-15T20:21:00.000+08:00
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HAHHHHHHHHHHHAAAAAA.
i am back.
chalet was funnn lah!
i learnt how to play mahjong alr!!
I LEARNT HOW TO PLAY MAHJONG
ALREADY.
AND GUESS WHO TAUGHT ME
HAHAHA MISS HAINEE.
she said brenda and i are the
worlds worst combination
when it comes to mahjong ._.
cause we both will scream
no matter win or lose
hahahaah which i think its
ONLY PARTIALLY TRUE.
the chalet's too long to blog about
im damn lazy.
i am damn lazy
iMDAMNLAZY
okay anyway
it was FUN
cause it was a chalet where all the
rg nballers gathered tgthr and had fun
and played mahjong and talked and scared
the shit outta each other by telling ghostly
stuff and deciding whthr to go CHANGI
HOSPITAL TO EXPLORE :\ or not and drop
into the holes and die and also bluffed each other
about not sleeping and going to watch sunset
but ended up sleep tgthr on floors
or beds or (I WANTED TO SLEEP ON THE TABLE!) and
chased each other around the tables
for mahjong tiles (GERI WAS CHASING ME FOR THE TILE WHICH BOTH OF US WERE AFTER BUT I WON
IN THE END HAHAH) and watched
stupid horror movies like cursed and infection
which i fell asleep in and went to changi village
to see bapoks and tried to take pictures of their
stupid asses and gstrings and big boobs AND I FINALLY ATE MOCHI
and the bbq which everyone went crazy trying to
start the fire and what else? mahjong mahjong mahjong
cards cards cards the whole place was like a damn
gambling den cause believe it or not, there were
3 tables of mahjong and dont know how many card
activities was going on too. hahah
the best thing was there were mahjongs of normal size,
mini size and minimini size! :D
damn cute. so we were all rotating lah.
RAHHHH 3 days have passed so fast.
i dont likeee.
i felt so horribleee on the first night
cause the weather was damn hot lah.
and we wernt supposed to slp on the first night lor
but i ended up falling aslp on the floor
the nxt day at like 7am
zhen woke me up thn we cabbed back to her house
to shower!
I REALLY FELT SHAGGED.
like i had a one night stand or smth.
hahahah wth.
aft that changed and sleept!!
her bed was damn comfortable lah
(compared to the stupid floor)
thn err yeahhh aft we woke up
went to exp
I FELT SHAGGED AGAIN
cuase i went to bed with my hair wet
thn its like.. argh screwed whn i woke up
haha
stupid zhen insisted on gng ecp for lunch
hahahahah but i dont regret gng there lah
... cause i ate the nice pita roll
and albert treated whee
and listened to stories
haha
oh yeah!! and
when we were gng back to the chalet
from changi village on the second night
there were police lah.
thn they called us to go over..
cause we were kaypo and kept looking
at them while they were talking to another
grp of youths
hahaha damn retarded.
shihui was being so damn scared.
like some kidnappers would come in a van
along the road and grab one of us and
drive away hahahaha
she wanted us to walk in a single file (? my god i feel stupid i dont know how to spell)?!
uhm yeah.. i was scared too kay. ahhaha
and all these happeend cause the police told us
that there were 4 missing cases in an hour around that area.
at first when we went to changi village we were scared of ghosts
thn whn we were walking back i was scared of kidnappers.
hahahaah wth lah.
ANYWAY I DONT WANNA BLOG ALR.
THE BAPOKS ARE DISGUSTINGS.
I COULD SEE THEIR BIG FAKE ROUND BOOBS
AND THEIR SKIRTS ARE SO SHORTT YOU CAN SEE
THEIR ASSES, AS IN REALLY. THN GOT ONEE
CAN SEE THE GSTRING SOMEMORE.
SO SHORT AND TIGHT AND GROSS.
got some prostitutes also.
they were standing along the road.
some walked away whn we were coming
haha i was trying to take poictures hahahah
i am so bad.
i think some knew.
the bigboobwoman who hooked up with 3 guys.
I THOUGHT THEY WERE GONNA HAVE SEX AT LIKE SOME NEARBY PARK OR WHATEVER BUT TO MY DISAPPOINTMENT THEY DIDNT. DAMN.
hahahaha k sorry i am evil

the police rolled his eyes at me whn i took that
i heard from nats that he couldnt roll his eyes properly.
he was like acting cool
stupid singh police
that is his stupid car and i hate his stupid face

these are the two obscene paows which belong to eleanor and elaine.
we were sitting at the coffeeshop of changi village to look at bapoks :D

2005-06-11T23:37:00.000+08:00
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hmm talking about sleeping early,
i mean who can sleep as early as i do? :)
I AM SOOOOO GOOOOD
i slept at 5am in the morning

how about PRETTY dark rings?
<333333333333
my dark rings are the PRETTIEST so FOFF ):

AAAAAAAAAAAARGHHHHHHHHHH

went to watch the semis for nsl just now...
arowanas vs mannas
and marlins vs stingrays
hahaha the second match was damn exciting!
yeahhhh but somehow
gnia started tying small plaits for meeeeeee
:D with rachel's PINK rubber bands.
yeah stingrays lost by 1 goal!
hahah everyone around me was cheering for
stingrays.. and they somehow got me cheering
for stingrays too.
IM SO SLEEPY.
PLAYED POOL TODAY AGAIN.
WITH RACHEL.
I WON RACHEL, GOT THRASHED BY ZHEN AT FIRST,
ZHEN LOST TO RACHEL ONCEE (VICIOUS CYCLE GASP)
THN I WON ZHEN THRICE IN A ROW (HAHA) IN THE END
HAHAHAHA WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

came a time
when every star fall brought you to tears again
we are the very hurt you sold
and what's the worst you take
from every heart you break
and like the blade you stain
well i've been holding on tonight

my chemical romance - helena! nicee.

2005-06-11T23:19:00.000+08:00
100605

Your good intentions slowly turn to bitterness
Reoccurring episodes with each and every kiss

oooooh im sleepy :D
but i feel like blogging!
hols are greaaaaaaaaaaat
woooooooo :)
so good that i've forgotten about my homework
but it happens all the time
so wth
i can't wait for another onedayshoppingtriptojohor :)
i love that place! and my jacket
and my shoes and my shirts cause i bought them all
from thereee and the prices are like... reasonable!
:D HAH.
they certainly are.
anyway went to watch the street fest in town just now.
twas the finals and kenneth's band got in
so gnia, being kenneth's supportive
girlfriendtobehahahahahahah
obviously had to be there huh?
and gillian and zhen and sarah, being
gnia's supportive good friends
would accompany her too? :)
hahaha. that ass just msged to apologise
cause sheeeeee hung up so abruptly on me
cause of her mum. YOU GOOD HUH.
btw speaking of gnia.
don't know what's wrong with her.
she has morphed into some kind of
freak who only does numbers
(e.g PHYSICS AND MATH)
my bestie, i mean numberfreak, has
changed!!! ):
she calls me only to force me to do
physics or math with her.
okayfinethatsnottrueeeee
i like to exaggerate
that girl needs some love.
yeah unfortunately tragedy limits (their band's name which i think is cool)
didnt win but well i thought they were good too.
hahah crossbreds was another banddd tooooo
i LIKE ELECTRIC GYPSY
and
the
cute
guitarist
whos
so
bloody
damn
crushable
haahahahahhahaah
but i like my boyfriend best.
ahem. yeah uhmm ytd
i can't rmb what i did.
i can only rmb i slept at 3am
and now i have really bad black rings
they're soooo bad..
they're sooooo evil..
they're soooooo horrible..
OHHH I RMB WHAT I DID YTD!
i caught mr and mrs smith! :D
it's really niceeeeeee..
so i'm downloading now so i can
watch it again and again.
and this is one of the reasons
why i havent really gotten bored
in this holiday :)
yupp had a club match too..
went with rachel
she helped me tie my hair!
with green rubberbands provided by vivien
to suit my attire
hahaha and saw farhanah
who ate a piece of chocolate
fine that was unnecessary
uhh thn stupid match was cancelled
cause of the lightning ._.
and thn its like you couldnt even hear thunder!
THAT MEANS THE LIGHTNING IS
VERY VERY FAR AWAY FROM YOU.
i learnt that ytd :)
the longer you hear the thunder aft you see the lightning,
the further the lightning is from you,
so the less likely youd get striked by lightning
yay
uhm yah.
tmrw's sat!
theres NSL semis.
before that gonna pool with rach and zhen.
ANYWAY siew kim CANT GO OUT WITH MEEEE
man i pity her. HAH
ARE YOU READING THIS!
AND WHATS SO CREEPY ABOUT DREAMING
ABOUT ME TWICE HAHAHA IDIOT.
OH YEAHHHH
i must blog aboutt his.
i dreamt that it was the end of the world.
like. really ):
IT WAS IN SCHOOL,
WHEN WE WERE HAVING DISCUSSIONS.
THN SUDDENLY WE WERE RUNNING EVERYWHERE
IT WAS DAMN CHAOTIC
THEN EVERYONE WAS TRYNA GET TO THE TOP FLOOR.
CAUSE THE BUILDING WAS FLOODING/MELTING (I CANT RMB. IT MUST HAVE SMTH TO DO WITH WATCHING HOUSE OF WAX!!!)
UHM YEAH THE DREAM WAS REALLY HORRIBLE
I WAS TRYING TO MSG EVERYONE SOMEEE FAREWELL MSG
THOSE IMPORTANT PPL IN MY LIFE.
BUT I THINK I LOST MY PHONE OR SMTH CAUSE IT WAS SO CHAOTIC.
YEAH BUT IT FELT GOOD.
CAUSE THE WHOLE WORLD WAS GONNA DIE WITH YOU :)
i mean, how often do you get that kind of dream.

other than that.
i had two other dreams in the same sleep
which i will not tell you
but duh they're not wet shut up.
think this entry is long enough
and i wanna catch my sleep so that
the ugly black rings around my eyes
would go awaaaaaaaay and they suck
so i want them to go awaaaaaaaaaaaaay
so i think i shall go and sleep now :)
gnia and i think we're all very noisy ppl.

OHHHHILOVETHISDUDE :) HEH + shopping + netball including club and school + pool which i won ZHEN BY TWO BALLS AND THAT'S THAT HAHAHAHAHAH + movies + harvest moon(!!!!!! :D) I'M WINNING THE GIRL'S HEART SOON AND IM GROWING HEALTHY CROPS!? + friends like gnia whose dumb and zhen whose whiny and ame whose grumpy... etc. + stupid eye drawings + stupid gothic wannabe shit stuff which includes make up and photo editings + NH hunt which can be pretty sucky but i still love them anyway + taking stupid pictures against graffiti walls + late nights - (homework + pressure) + hairband which i randomly bought + converse shoes + adidas jacket + m.s.x long sleeve shirt + 3 hollister shirts!!! + INDIAN BANGLES HAHA WHICH I THINK I WANNA WEAR TMRW HAHAHA + sleep sleep sleep = holidays.

wth that was damn lame im sorry
but what more can i ask for!

2005-06-08T01:02:00.000+08:00

The Keys to Your Heart
You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.
In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.
You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.
Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.
In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?
You Are 45% Normal
(Somewhat Normal)

While some of your behavior is quite normal...
Other things you do are downright strange
You've got a little of your freak going on
But you mostly keep your weirdness to yourself

How Normal Are You?

2005-05-31T23:07:00.000+08:00
310505

why don't you
say that to my face?
i've had it ripped out,
torn down,
so many fakes.
everything you,
every time you,
every word you say.
if i told you this was killing me
would you,
would you stop?

I HATE COCKROACHES
LIZARDS!!!!!!!
BEETLES
SPIDERS
WORMS
whatever fuck.
I JUST HEARD A LIZARD AGAIN.
ARRRRRRRRRRRRGGGHHH
they're the grossest shit alive.
i think i should get a lizard trap soon.

from now onwards im going to
blog like im talking to myself
:/ HAW HAW.
nvm.
so when was the last time you blog
doofus.
anyway ITS THE HOLIDAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYZ!
FINALLY.
and what bullshit about no holiday hwk.
school is shht lah.
whatever.
anyway GSS is finally here too.
but i dont feel a thing anymre.
hahaha.
i went to make my IC tday!
okay more like..
the taking the picture part FOR THE IC
was more idiotic.
the stupid queue was long.
my hair was screwed.
cause like the lady said
my fringe was abit too long
thn i needed to put some water.
she kept insisting me to put
MORE water aft i tidy my hair
thn i had to tidy it again
but thats not the main pt.
the main pt is that
I PUT A LITTTLE TOO MUCH WATER
so my fringe was like.
FLAT.
and the back part as like.
BLAH.
whatever that is. it was just screwed ):
and i look like a kuku smiling
now this makes me not feel like bloggin anym
anyway aft that went to play pool
with my daddddd hahahahahha
at safra.
he was damn annoying.
dont know what was wrong with him.
SEE IM NOT BOASTING ABOUT ANYTHING NOW
CAUSE THERES NTH TO BOAST ABOUT.
NOW CAN YOU GUESS WHAT HAPPENED
WHEN I PLAYED POOL WITH HIM
....
lols.
thn cameee homeee
my house of wax download was 99% !
:D
thn went to meet ziming and CO
at safra agaaain.
wHaT siAz. d0n'T pLA3 nEhx
m0i FeIv hAng0uT n0w

thn i came home and
watched house of wax.
ITS DAMN BLOODY GROSSSSSSS
my whole body went weak when i saw all the URGH parts.
yuckkk but i like to watch
hahahahahahahahah
was supposed to go zhen's house.
but gnia wrecked my plans
-GLARES.
but its okay i still love you anyway bestie.
zhennn saved me tday
i love my ex
hahahahahahahah
so funny.

anyway tmrw gng to malaysia
AME AND I AND .. DAD?
:)
HAHA AME AND I WILL GO SASAING.
i did smth wrong just now.
but i get to get SASA-ed?!
hahahahaha im talking nonsense
cause i am sleeepy nights.
tonight is so damn hot.

2005-05-28T21:57:00.000+08:00
280505

you were everything i wanted
but i just can't finish what i've started
there's no room left here on my back
it was damaged long ago
though you swear that you are true
i still pick my friends over you
my friends over you

my friends over you - new found glory

I AM SO TIREDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
AND BURRRRRRNTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT
but i still like netball carnivals anyway.
think i wont say much todaaaaaay, byebye.

2005-05-27T23:06:00.000+08:00
270505

have I taken you for granted
but I know what matters most to you
in slow motion as you walk on by
pictures of you forever in my mind

LISTEN TO TAKING BACK SUNDAY.

2005-05-27T14:01:00.000+08:00
270505

helloooooooo
im in class now.
whats up with the blog-in-school thing :P
-looks at gnia.
I LIKE TO ACT CUTE DURING TRAININGS.
HAHAHAHAH.
-does poutypuppydogstickouttongue face!
haha i am so irritatinggggggggggggg
anyway, school sucks like shit.
i am damnnnn tired.
waiting for chuwen to finish her briefing
anddddddddd gnia to finish her test
im sooo sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeepyyyyyyyyy
i need sleeeeeep.
and i think im gonna watch a lot like love
again when i go home later.
and fall asleeep cause im so sleeeeeepyyyy!

2005-05-25T22:04:00.000+08:00
250505

i wanted you for nothing more
than hating you for what you were.
if that's what you wanted to hear.
well it's love. make it hurt.

everybody should listen to taking back sunday :D
the school is getting to me, again.
it's likeeeeee the last week of schl and there
are suddenly so many assignments to be handed in.
or maybe it's just my last min shit attitude again
LALALA I DONT KNOW.
OKAY MAYBE ITS REALLY ME.
cause i spent timeeee watching
A LOT LIKE LOVE :D :D :D
instead of like, doing my history or physics or chinese.
this morning didnt quite start off right. but it was fine.
cause it rained.
but i like rainy mornings.
anyway to cut the long story short
my shoes and socks were soaking wet whn i reached schl.
RAH.
i had to take off my socks..
and dry them.
so the whole day i was in my wet squishy shoes without my socks.
aft schl was damn annoying.
i was so frustrated.
was with shiya for the whole aftnoon.
haha its not her who made me so frustrated.
its the freaking physics and the stupid hot weather.
it was so nice in the morning whatever
i need to go toilet so bye.
oh wait, LET ME TELL YOU A LITTLE MORE ABOUT A LOT LIKE LOVE!
:D
ITS A NICEE MOVIE.
i thinkkk the ending is so sweet
and I'LL BE THERE FOR YOUUU
THESE FIVE WORDS I SWEAR TO YOU
WHEN YOU BREATHE I WANNA BE THE AIR FOR
YOU I'LL BE THERE FOR YOUU ):
now im stuck to it again. sheesh
HAHA thanks chubbieee for burning for me though
im still downloading it.. :)

2005-05-24T17:56:00.000+08:00
240505

I MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY,
MORE THAN WORDS COULD EVER SAY.

HAHA HELLLP. IM LISTENING TO THE MOFFATTS?
and its called MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY?
hahahahah i think i am getting all hyped up
cause of all the sniffing and smelling of the
mixed up perfumeee. gagaga.
GAGAGAGA, i loveeee RALPH!!!!
<3
STRAWBERRIES AND CREAM
(fine im bored and its fun)
woohooo.
read it like this : strawberri-SAND cream.
damn nice
its just like..
sex at ex's place.
read it again and again like strawberri-SAND cream.
AAAAAH okay i will stop it.
hahaha.
math is so irritating i swear.
MR LUI IS FINE I SUPPOSE.
I SUPPOSE.
I SUPPOSE.
I SUPPOSE.
until he made me answer a
QUESTION THAT I ASKED HIM.
and he asked me to go home and try out and present my answer to the class tmrw.
thank you im so not gonna do it cause i SO dont know how to do it and no one's so gonna remind him.
chinese was damn funny.
especially when someone who sits beside you reads
(amelene and tiffany sit beside me during chi)
NI (soil) as NIAO (urine)
hahahaha ame and i laughed our asses offf.
i felt so weak laughing until i cldnt read the passage when
lao shi asked me t.
ame couldnt even write properly.
yay schl was damn fun.
aft that had physics.
but was interrupted by photo taking.
phototaking was hilarious too.
it was fun
mr LUI was in a tieeeeeeeeee, red tie.
i was supposed to imitate EMILY for informal shot.
shiya was supposed to become like, the WITCH from errr
night before christmas?! or night after christmas
or something night smth christmas DONT KNOW LAH.
then ame was supposed to do the skeleton from the smth night smth christmas too0!!
haha oh and did i mention i bought a new wallet last friday when i finally had my HANS PEACH TART! :)
its the skeleton from the smth night ssmth christmas lah.
okay NYHENYEHNYEH WHATEVER.
aft that had english.
we had like word quizzes ._.
but damn fun. haahah.
i wish all english lessons are like that.
THN RS. even better.
ms chung didnt come
and she asked me to inform the two other grps what they're suppsoed to do
and whats evenn better was that we already discussed what we're supposed to do in the june hols last friday. yay i feel so organised and neat and good. HAHA.
thn ame and i left schl to go taka's DIY store for our physics and only realised it wasnt there anymore.
so yeah went for lunch at KFC instead. haha im so broke.
IM SAVING . this is worth it :)
mwahahaha just a few more days
yeah thn gnia wanted her culottes back.
oh yah i was wearing her pe tshirt and culottes cause
she had phototaking too and she didnt bring her pinafore..
so we changed lah. i felt so...
UNGILLIAN.
and apparently she got scolded for wearing my pinafore
cause the pinafore is short and the belt is low (SORRY BESTIE LAH
PPL NOT AS SKINNY AS YOU MAH)
haha and that girl's culottes is SO SHORT.
i felt as if i was revealing my ass whenever i sat down!
hahah whatever. thn she came to taka
and i swopped back with her lah..
haha shes so happy cause she has a phone already.
and smth SO SIGNIFICANT happened lah huh :)
she called me a loser for crying for 50first dates.
.. yeah yeah your darr cried too.
AME REMEMBER TO BRING THE VCD TMRW.
im going to watch it again and again and make sure
i dont cry no more when i watch it :D :D :D
i was thinking of the movie the whole of tday.
yeah aft lunch we went spotlight..
wanted to get the block of wood and nylon strings.
got the wood but no nylon strings.
HAHA TOO BAD AME.
sheesh im sorry ame that was evil ):
i promise to be good to my oochie boochie coochie loochie foochie.
hahah i got really highhh cause i started talking about
the stupid pushagainstthewallandhumpyou thing gnia and i
were playing that time :D
lols!
i think i embarrassed ame a lot.
nyehnyehnyeh
yay this blog entry is so long and fun
SO YEAH. aft we bought the stupid piece of wood
which costs $1.29, no joke it's $1.29.
no kidding its $1.29 no error its $.1.29
uhh anyway went to meridien with ame..
THE UNCLE ROCKS.
MWAHAHAH. now my bag has a strong issey miyake smell.
OH CHUBBIEEE WUBBIEEE TWEETY ARE YOU JEALOUS.
and my notebook smells of ralph <3
HAHAH
and i think i wanna get either the small ralph or echo...
aaaaaaahh i told him i'll go back. i WILL go back and get it
and he sprayed on us so many diff types of perfume lah.
aft that thn he made us smell coffee so that we can
'clear our nose'. hahah damn funny cause he kept being sarcastic
and i didnt know he was serious about it when he said that i could spray
issey miyake into my bag and then ralph into my notebook!!!
HAHAHA
he said im easily contented, which i think its true.
hahahahahahah whatever im happy.
anyoneee who wants to buy perfumeee tell mee
i'll bring you there cause i think he'd give discount
and maybe i could spray moreeeeeeeee in my bag
then it can smell really really really good and i
will crush my bag and live in it

then we left. saw sam the 'chiobu'
hes damn scary.
thn also met dharham.
had a chat with him cause he was taking the same train.
lols yeah thats about it.
i havent done my physics PT!
screw.
oh listen to 40kinds of sadness by ryan cabrera :)

i think oliver james is cute somehow.
and ugly too. damn, i'm gay.

2005-05-23T21:46:00.000+08:00
230505

so sick, so sick of being tired.
and oh so tired of being sick.
we're both such magnifacent liars.
so crush me baby, i'm all ears.
so obviously desperate, so desperately obvious.
i'll give in one more time and feed you stupid lines all about cleaning up my act..
we won't stand for hazy eyes anymore.

sigh sigh sigh.
i miss the perth trip in 2002 ):
i miss people ):
and this nice song makes me sad.
nyehnyehnyeh whatever.
wokeeee up in the morning
felt all pissssssy
thn dad sent me to zhen's house.
haha aft i got to zhens houseee we pigged out
maybe I pigged out only not her. damn.
anyway i annoyed the shit outta her.
that ass wanted to watch robots
so i watched with her.
thn she felt so hot and sleepy
so she went to her room and slept
and left me in the living room watching
robots with her brother and sister.
thank you.
NEHMIND NEHZ
while she was sleeping in her room
i watched 50 first dates too!
ahahahahahah
i cried four times ):
henry rothhhhh is so sweeeeeeeeet
aaaaaaaaaah
so touching i feel like crying again.
bye. zhen laughed at me for crying
WHEN SHE CRIED TOO.
HAHAHAHAAH. emo bitch.
and screw ARES ame!
MY MOVIE LIKE DISAPPEARED!?

2005-05-22T21:32:00.000+08:00
220505

haha im blogging again!

i used to call you my friend
i used to call you the love
the love that i never had
whn i think of you
i don't know what to do
whn will i see you again
i miss you like crazy
even more than words can say
i miss you like crazy
every minute of every day

hahaha guess what, zhen!
IM LISTENING TO THE MOFFATS TOO HAHA
AND THE TITLE IS EVEN WORSE THAN 'MISERY'
ITS MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY
i feel a bit kuku now
now i rmb what i did ytd. so i shall blog :)
eeks i woke up and watched finding nemo
cause i was so bored \:
nyehnyehnyehnyeh whatever.
thn went to the students service centre.
nyehnyehnyeh for service learning.
this project is like. ... i dont know.
nyehnyehnyeh
aft that i went homeeeeeeeee
showered and changed.
thn went to tampines mall to meet zhenn.
nyehnyhnyeh whatever.
we wanted to watch a movie..
but the tickets are like SOOO DAMN EX.
no money SIAXXXXX.
nyehnyehnyeh :D
so didnt watch.
thn we ate dinner.
dinner was long johns silver
why?
cause WE GOT NO MONEY SIAXXXX.
hahahahahahaaha nyehnyehnyeh.
aft dinner we headed to town for pool :D
wanted to go to my FUNKY BALLZ SIAXXX.
but stupid place so full. thn the waiting list
so long some more NIAXXXX.
PMO only.
PMO stands for piss me off and i think its damn
cool like GSS :D :D
nyehnyehnyeh i like it so who cares
thn we decideed to go meridien instead
NYEHNYEHNYEH
that whore (of mine)
kept complaining.
hmmm i think she taught me not to
wear white shirts and heels on rainy days
yay. if not i'll be whiny and irritating like her
and thn everyone will hate me boohoo
but dont worry zhen you're not hated.
hahahahahahahahah
i think im so irritating nyehnyehnyeh
so we walked to meridien in the rain.
nyehnyeh nyeh and we got wet
nyehnyehnyeh my hair was so damn flat.
thn HOR dont kno why the world so small LEH
so QIAO nehz. saw AH JO there siaXXX.
and KY -looks at gnia.
hahah man i miss that girl! i miss the girl whose leg's in a cast too!
siewyyy dewwwy.
yeah anyway zhen and i played pool. i ALMOST
thrashed her by 7balls :P
like how i thrashed tweety the other time
right, TWEETIE! :D
anyway i was grinning like mad
so i lost concentration then then then
I MISSED THE BALL.
damn. so i didnt thrash her by 7 balls.
nyehnyehnyeh whatever.
she won me so many times lor PMO only.
hahahahahaa
thn i got highhhhhh and even the
monster cue uncle also say i siao alr.
hahah oh and he asked why only zhen and i
lols!
anyway zhen was the one who got me high
cause she cldnt stop saying
NYEHNYEHNYEH WHATEVR>

now im stuck on it too.
we played for about errrrrrrrrrr i forgot how long
thn went downstairs to get my yami shake hahaha
aft that went heeren DID SMTH VERY WRONG
): wasted money cause we screwed it HAHAH.
nyehnyehnyeh whatever.
oooh zhen's new mango handbag is so hip NIAXXX.
she doesnt need another converse clutch
or ripcurl tote lah huh :)
hmm i guess thats about it.
nyehnyehnyeh
i like that converse clutch too.. the SMALLER version.
GREEDY PPL WHO WEAR
WHITE (POLO) TSHIRTS AND HEELS ON RAINY
DAYS LIKE BIG CLUTCHES :D
HHAHAHAHA.
oooh GSS baby here i come
are you ready amelene!

2005-05-22T15:31:00.000+08:00
220505

NO NO NO
DONT PHUNK WITH MY HEART
stupid song stuck in my head.
especially the yaahyeeeyaaaa part.
would you still be in loveee baby
in love baby

SUNDAY MAKES ME SLEEPY.
i hate sundays.
bye i cant rmb what i did ytd.

2005-05-19T22:27:00.000+08:00
190505

i'll make my way across the frozen sea,
beyond the blank horizon,
when I can forget "you and me"
and get a decent night's sleep.
well here I am.
i don't know how to say this.
the only thing I know is awkward silence.
your eyelids close when you're around me to shut me out.
don't shut me out.

oooo i pierced my ear again just now.
random piercing at random part of random ear.
my previous entry is so screwed. zzz.
deedee and sarah got me PMS lip balm! haha!
it's damn cute.
think i'll use it everyday :)
though shiya hates the smell of it.
oh and i passed ss!!
start killing ants cause tmrw's friday and the following monday's a public holiday!

2005-05-17T20:52:00.000+08:00
SEVENTEENTH OF MAY TWOTHOUSAND AND FIVE!

GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHH
NIKE DUNKS ARE MAKING ME GOOO GAGAAA
GOOOOGOOOORAAAARAAAA
BAAH <3 size="5">GSS.
GSS!!!!!!!! :D
HAHAH i think only ame knows what that stands for :)
yay. we went shopping today for accessories...
ah yeahhh everything we bought today were accessories only :D
YAY BYE.
everybodyyy looveees tooo be the birthday girl
gillian likes to be the birthdayyy girl.
giillian feels one year younger even though she grew a year older.
gillian still sounds like a baby
gillian is still collecting presents <3
gillian loves her friends.

2005-05-14T13:13:00.000+08:00
140505

i'm falling even more in love with you
letting go of all i've held onto
i'm standing here until you make me move
i'm hanging by a moment here with you

2005-05-13T21:59:00.000+08:00
THIRTEENTH OF MAY 2005

I FEEEL SOO DEPRIVED. RAHH I NEED POOL.
I HATE SALTED VEGEETABLES.
AND TAN LI REN, I AM GONNA DEDICATE MY HATE BLOG TO YOU HAHAHAHA.
well, you asked me to.
THANKS FOR MAKING ME WALK TO CINE TO PASS THE NOTES TO YOU. you're the black bitch, BIITCH

2.4 was fine. my timing improved :)
11.31. i hate the freaking weather
ame is a strong girl
i have sooo many mosquito bites THIS SUCKS.
yay dunks baby dunks!

"IF YOU DONT KNOW ME BY NOWWWWWW..
YOU WILL NEVER NEVER KNOW ME.."
wooooo that song rocks im gna download bye.

2 more days! :D

2005-05-12T19:58:00.000+08:00

12th MAY TWO OOOO FIVE.

Dear Gillian,
Today i was just bumming around, watching tv and shitting all my pent up frustration out like there was no tomorrow. I was so bored, i chanced upon reading your weblog(gasp! i dont read them on a normal basis, i swear by NEWSWEEK!) and discovered your inane fantasy for britney. It has come to my attention that teenagers like you are being mentally tortured by poor depressed souls like Britney, hiding behind a (once) pretty face/mask. I would now like you to awaken to reality and realise that Britney, though highly influential and once very sweet and innocent, has gone through certain trials and tribulations that dont ultimately make her a very good person. To say that she is married with a child is awfully concealing the whole truth. In fact, she has such a rocky history with the media, all with her supposed shotgun marriage, one night marriage, drug problems etcetera etcetera.. I highly disapprove of you listening to any of her songs. Who knew what underlying message she was trying to promote at that time? It could seriously brainwash your head anytime. Take Care. Cut down(on Britney). and Stay away from the drugs.

Cheers,
Your friendly diarrhoea-ing neighbour,
Shiya the great. <3
:D :D :D
training was damn fun. hahaha pt wasnt as bad as expected. lols. 2.4run TMRW. i hopeee mr ong won't kachiaoooo meeeee cos i dont think i can achieve the timing i bet with him last yr ): aah. thn nike trng in the night again. raaah. im sooo dissatisfied with the durians i just ate. they're like hard and disgusting. i tried at least oneeeee durian from all the 3 containers but none of them are nice!!!!! damn. i shall make ame suffer tmrw with the durian smell :) oooh yeah i didnt fail chem. but i think i failed physics social studies and maybe history................... bye

2005-05-11T21:41:00.000+08:00
ELEVENTH MAY TWO OH OH FIVE

:D :D :D
hahaha i am so happy today
ame and i went sauna!
HAHAHA i got high after drinking
my pudding <3
now the picture's gone! :)
hahahahahahhahaha im lmao! :D
raaah i miss issey miyake smell.
chuwen likes it too :)

2005-05-10T19:30:00.000+08:00
100505

have i told you lately that i love you
have i told you there's no one else above you
fill my heart with gladness, take away all my sadness
ease my troubles, that's what you do

for the morning sun and all its glory
meets the day with hope and comfort too
you fill my life with laughter, somehow you make it better
ease my troubles, that's what you do

there's a love that's defined
and it's yours and it's mine like the sun
and at the end of the day
we should give thanks and pray to the one, to the one

i just loooooove this song. and what a wonderful world!
and tell laura i love her.
hahaha when i listen to these songs
i just feel like laughing at them lols.
they're such nice songs :)
and i think to myselffffffff what a wonderful world!
i feel gay.
haha its been a monthhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
since i broke up
anyway 5 more days to 15th may :)
whooo DUNKIES here i come.

i had a reallly NICEEEEE SWEET WOOOHOOO dream last night!!!
i didnt knw i was laughing in my sleep until
my dad told me just now!
AHHH. so embarrassing.
HAHAHA the good thing is he doesnt knw what i dreamt of :D
-looks at chuwen and shi hui and gnia and yi zhen and ame
teeeheeeheee. damn im so gay.
but oh wellllll i wish id get such sweet dreams ALL THE TIME
HAHAHAHAHA

got back our math and chinese tests today
haha i think i did fineee
ive got so many careless mistakes ._.
audrey says im a geek HAHAHA
but i still love her anyway!
physics was damn annoying.
i was cursing mr thio towards the end of the block
cos i was so annoyed by him
or rather his voice which couldnt stop
breaking which annoyed me so much
hah

smth happened to my blog entry! -gasps.
im too lazy to update the changes cos it's the 506th time im doing so.
goobai, think i shall sleep early again tonight

2005-05-09T19:33:00.000+08:00
090505

HAIRPEEE BERFTAY NARTASHAR TOE!!!!! :D :D

i miss nats! ):
aahh so many people's birthday this month ): so broke!
damn.
anyway trng was damn fun tday.
as for school.. we made like bread for bio!
mine was nice and round like a tau sar pao until
i threw it arnd and it dropped on the floor ):
im very sleepy.. think i shall skip dinner and go to bed
GOOBAI.

2005-05-08T20:19:00.000+08:00
080505

life's different :)

2005-05-07T22:12:00.000+08:00
070505

haha today was funnnnn. i haven't enjoyed myself in a long time and i sound deprived. damn.
ANYWAY i was awoken by zhen's call at like 11. stupid girl. SO SHE SAID SHE WAS BORED AND WANTED TO WATCH A MOVIE. hahaah actually i wanted to go out too so yeah shes not a stupid girl after all :D yeahh thn met up with her. wanted to watch house of wax. ame said its damn gross. didnt watch it in the end cos ps is so freaking strict i cant stand the ppl. we got a niceeeeeee couple to buy tickets for us. haha. singabloodyporeee still has nice people lahhh.. rahrahrahrahrahrahr aft that zhen and i went to play pool at like. FUNKY BALLS. hahahaahahah i like the name. so spastic and cute. thats sooooo gonna be our new hangout. $5 an hr only. damn, i feel like eating char kuay teowwww. hahah zhen wants to eat papyas for BIG BOOBIES woohooo. hhahahaa. and thnnn played until at like 2 thn she went for her imodels thing. EEWWWWW THE PERSON WAS A TRANSVESTITE. i like freaked out. anyway we went for our movie lahh. the usher helped us t change the movie tickets toooo the coach carter movie instead. hey the movie's niceeeeee. haha. zhen kept laying on my shoulder like we were some lesbian couple. so i used my phone to knock her head cos she kept dreaming and she keeps cheering for the damn basketball team as if she was watching it live and and and she thinks the worm guy is cute but i think the white guy's cuter and i think the junior person looks like the chinese actor YAN XIN SHU. ee. hahahaha the movie was damn long. its niceee. and touching. and quite funny. zhen is retarded lah kay.
AND GNIA DIDNT COME WITH US ..... hahahaahaha SO UNUSUAL RIGHT? well im not telling you why HAHAH. zhen and i wanna go fishing.
and after the loooooong moviee zhen had to leave for her dinner so we didnt go playy pool. thn i met my sexy ame. sexy ame wanted to shop. so i was niceeee and walked around with her. we likeee walked from ps all the way to far east? from ps we went to heeren taka wisma thn far east and pac plaza thn far east again. hahahahahaha i was torturing ame. I WANT (MY) FAMOUS STARS AND STRAPPPPPP SHIRRRRRRT!!!!!!! i wont mind the flesh imp one too! :D ahhhhhhh so nice. i like the adidas bag. i like the hollister skirt. i like the ripcurl wallet. I LIKE SO MANY THINGS. BUT I STILL WANT (MY) FAMOUS STARS AND STRAPP SHIRT! but im gonna get it for myself. i feel happy whn i buy myself stuff....... HAHAH. anyway ame rocks lah. she like bought the hollister skirt! its damn nice. oh yeah she got me a skirtttt too! hahah! YAAAAAAAAAY i like it a lot :D ame's so poor thing. she has a blister on her last toe ): i feel her pain, damn. ohh and she like told me the house of wax story. so freaking gross. I WANNA WATCH A LOT LIKE LOVEEEEEEE.
i'll be there for you
these five words i swear to you :D
and whn we got back from pac plazaaaaaa to far east i went on a trying spreeee and made shopkeepers angry hahahahahahahahahah one of them was so irritating so i just tried on everything and didnt buy anything hahahahaha. thn she kept saying shes gonna give me discount cos im the last customer ._. one dollar discount btw. she was so annoying but i think i annoyed her too hahahaha. im happy and tired. goobai.

2005-05-07T01:58:00.000+08:00
070505

"Post Script"
I wish it didn't hurt, hurt like this
to say these things to you
i'll sacrifice one moment for one truth

if we get through tomorrow then we'll be fine
we'll wait for forever and see how close we get..
it's just another day,
one more chance to get this right

the worst is over for now.
take a breath now let it out.

hiiiiiiii.
man, lifeee sucks. big time.
and ive realised that
i actually regret a lot of things i've done.
yeah whatever.
YUQUAN IS BACK FROM OBS!
im gonna talk to him goobai.
hahaha bestie is so lonely ):

2005-05-04T14:08:00.000+08:00
040505

hahahah
i do my thang in da club
every chance i get i tear it up
dance floor jam packed, look
i got em, goin, goin, out of control
set it off on yo left dawg
set it off on yo right dawg
set it off, nigga i said set it off
NICE SONG. to 'twitch' to.
outta control - 50cent
hate it or love it - the game
GET LOWWW also!
haha nuff' of sappy lyrics cuz'
yur mama's sick of 'em bitch

now gillian's telling me that she cant wait to go to ecp on friday to skate
WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
and fall down cos she can't skate for nuts.
yay and buy my dunks

mwahahahahahahahaha
goobai.

2005-05-03T15:46:00.000+08:00
030505

HAIRPEE BERFTAY CHUUUBIEEE WUUUBIEEEE
TWEEEEEEEEEETY! :D lurfhflurfhe <3
HAREPEA BIRRRRFTAAAE MAAALIAAA! :D

oh today is a happy happy day !
._.
hahahahahahah there are 3 humans who are celebrating their birthdays today.
so joyous. so fun. so happy. so happening.
hahahaha whatever.
history was okay, so was chinese except for some parts.
YAH YAH YAH THATS ABOUT IT.
and eugenia finally made me admit that
I LIKE BRITNEY A LOT.
zz i do. hahahahahah
you drive me crazy.
deenise sarah zhen gnia and i were like singing to britney songs today in mos burger!
hahahaahha yay
shes so lucky shes a star
sing 'don't let me be the last to know' to me
and i'll stick my pencil up your asshole.
and make you bleed inside. hahhahahaha.
oops i did it again.
FINE ENOUGH OF BRITNEY.
ANSWEERRR THE PHONEEEEEEEE
I KNOW THAT YOU'RE HOMEEE
I WANNA GET YOU ALONE
AND DO IT AGAIN
DO IT AGAIN
answer the phone by sugar ray!
goobai.

2005-05-02T21:39:00.000+08:00
020505

HURRRRRRRRR.
HISTORY AND CHINESE PAPERS TMRW.
GOD BLESS ME AND MY BRAIN.
AND MY HANDS. AMEN.

today went to ecp from like 11..
studied till like 3 with zhen and deeeedeeee haha
after that went to play pool
POOL WAS FREAKING 33BUCKS.
okay. hahaha made some new friends.
erms. yeah played pool till 7 before gng to zhen's house.
SHE SMELLS DAMN GOOD.
no wait. its ralph lauren cool.
ARGHHHH I WANNA GET HER TONIGHT
HAHAAH.
and DO IT AGAIN. DO IT AGAIN.
...........
oh.
to anon on my gstbk. i got my cat earrings from
level 2 at far east.. the livia level lah. some shop
which only sells accesories and there are earrings everywhere.
YEAH HAPPY SHOPPING.
OOOOH I CANT WAIT FOR FRIDAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY
anyway im so glad im not in a 'crush' state or some bloody shitified love phase :)
HAHA.

2005-04-30T11:35:00.000+08:00
britney spears is power. ahhahahahaha
im listening to her songs!

you took your love away
too fast
left no chance to say
look back
now I know the truth it makes it easier,
maybe when time goes by
i’ll understand

let’s pretend that i’ve moved on
and I’ll tell myself
that life goes on without you-
open my eyes and look deep inside
i run away

you threw it all away
so blind
pushed me far from you and your life
now I know the tears
wont relieve the loneliness

i run away - BRITNEY SPEARS HAHA!
sigh i haven started my revision.

2005-04-28T22:07:00.000+08:00
hayye beetchess 'saxbomb'!
wi no wherechu roam
an' trable ees warhatchu wahrnt.
i teenq eye've had sarme farnnnn.
eenarffhhhhhh neega i saaaayd NIGGA ENOUGHH!
cauze dadt HOME ees wherchur faat ess weel be sittin' nigga!
lurfhf nigga' i say LURFHF, <3

I WISH IT DIDNT HURT!
HURT LIKE THIS
TO SAY THESE THINGS TO YOU
I'LL SACRIFICE ONE MOMENT FOR ONE TRUTH

IF WE GET THROUGH TMRW THN WE WI'LL BE FINE.
WE'LL WAIT FOR FOREVER AND SEE HOW CLOSE WE GET
IT'S JUST ANOTHER DAY, ONE MORE CHANCE TO GET THIS RIGHT
I'LL SACRIFICE FOREVER PLEASE JUST FOR TONIGHT
IF WE GET THROUGH TMRW THN WE'LL BE FINE

THE WORST IS OVER FOR NOW.
TAKE A BREATH NOW LET IT OUT.....

post script - finch
heard it at spongee. and we were stuck on it for da HOLE DAE NIGGA'!
oh btw my links are at the bottom of the page..

2005-04-26T22:06:00.000+08:00
there are quite a few problems lately
not sure if they're going away..
or there are more coming our way.

and the term 'baby' is used so loosely
that i'm getting the CHILLS from it!
hahahahahahahahahhaahha

ahhhh shht. i can't seem to start on my revision for the tests next week. blooooooooody shit.
starting to pms again cos of the blooooooody hot weather also.

2005-04-26T19:50:00.002+08:00
it's just wrong.
wrong to call someone
'baby'.
-looks at eugenia and yizhen :

2005-04-26T19:50:00.001+08:00
it's just wrong.
wrong to call someone
'baby'.
-looks at eugenia and yizhen :

2005-04-26T19:50:00.000+08:00
it's just wrong.
wrong to call someone
'baby'.
-looks at eugenia and yizhen :

2005-04-26T19:48:00.002+08:00
it's just wrong.
wrong to call someone
'baby'.
-looks at gnia and zhen :

2005-04-26T19:48:00.001+08:00
it's just wrong.
wrong to call someone
'baby'.
-looks at gnia and zhen :

2005-04-26T19:48:00.000+08:00
it's just wrong.
wrong to call someone
'baby'.
-looks at gnia and zhen :

2005-04-26T16:04:00.000+08:00
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i've been here before a few times
and i'm quite aware we're dying.
and your hands they shake the goodbyes
and i'll take you back if you'd have me

so here i am i'm trying
so here i am i'm ready

come on let me hold you, touch you, feel you
always
kiss you, taste you all night
always
and i'll miss your laugh your smile
i'll admit i'm wrong if you'd tell me
i'm so sick of fights, i hate them
lets start this again for real

ahh. nice song .. blink 182! always.
i have a sudden urge to listen to them!
ohwell.

this is the first thing I remember
now it's the last tthing left on my mind
afraid of the dark do you hear me whisper
an empty heart replaced with paranoia
where do we go life's temporary
after we're gone like new years resolutions
why is this hard do you recognize me
i know I'm wrong but I can't help believing

i'm so lost
i'm barely here
i wish i could explain myself
but words escape me
it's too late to save me
you're too late

you're cold with disappointment
while i'm drowning in the next room
the last contagious victim of this plague between us
i'm sick with apprehension
i'm crippled from exhaustion
AND I DREAD THE MOMENT WHEN YOU FINALLY COME TO KILL ME
blink oneeeeeightttttwooo - stockholm syndrome :)

2005-04-14T19:50:00.000+08:00
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HIIII. im back
hahaha yeahhhh
these few days are reallyyyyyyy
TIRING.
theres soooooo much work to do
wth.
anyway i shld blog about this :)
cos its funny.
and its like an experience
you will never get to ENJOY all the time yay!
so here i go :)

saturdaaay.
gnia and i went town. TOWN TOWN.
-fastforwards everything.
okay so we decided to make a trip
down to far east before going home.
uh huh. so yeah we were waiting at the traffic light to cross the road to paragon whn like some toad i mean a toad! like croaked my name. "GEELAN" eew. i was like ? so gnia and i turned around and happened to see XXXXXL (name not mentioned to protect privacy ._. right, more like XL's the size of her clotheswear) oh yeah. so i was like oh. hi? and XL was like scrutinizing me from HEAD to TOE in that uhms not very pleasant kinda way? like like her eyes were gonna pop out anytime and burst and explode which i wish they would cos they're useless and ugly. yeah and then gnia and i just turned back and continued talking when we heard someone raised her voice .. "..SPAM PEOPLE'S BOARD." gnia and i started laughing and gnia went like "who the hell wants to spam someone's board!" and we took a rather big step forward, but only to find that XL followed us and took a step forward too like she was stalking us!? okay maybe she was stalking us HAHA. loser act #1 "are they like following us?" "uhmm i think so gnia" and we started laughing like real loud cos it was soooooooo funny. hahahahaha. aft that we crossed the road and XL was like talking real loud except that her so-called friend didnt reply her? lalala loser act #2. yeah and thn suddenly she went like "HELLO someone. GUESS WHO I JUST SAW? THAT SLUT WHO SPAMMED YOUR BOARD YOU KNOW.." oh? hahahah LOSER ACT #3 cos i found out that someone did not even receive a single call from her. aft that gnia was like kinda angry cos she did not like to see her bestie get insulted like that (gnias such a good bestie. shes one of a kind. too bad she didnt choose you as her bestie) okay she forced me to type that hahahaha wth. anyway she was angry lah. and thn thrs this staircase leading down to the basement of paragon.. thers a m1 shop there. and gnia like walked down the stairs? so i was like ehh where the hell are you going! and she was like "I WANA GO DOWN THERE" but i didnt allow her to. so yeah loser XL followed us lah. shes smarter though, she like took the escalator? :) yeah whn she went down the escalator i called gnia up. so she like ran up the stairs in her heels (whoo lala hot babe who can run in heels HAHAHA) but im sorry bestie. XL was much better. she tried running up the ESCALATOR (moving steps like TREADMILL BUT WITH STEEPNESSS! woah sooooo bloody damn cool) in her HEELS! hahahahahahahahahah thank us man. we made her do some exercise right in town in her heels! LOSER ACT #3. oh btw she was the only one on the escalator. her friend didnt follow her. LOSER ACT #4. hmm she wore like this ugly piece of rag which i cant rmb the color of it because it like camouflaged with her ugly skin. LOSER ACT #5 cos she wears a bandage on her arm to gain sympathy from stupid people who thinks that shes injured when shes just trying to hide a birth mark of hers! COME ON, BE HAPPY WITH GOD GAVE YOU. IM HAPPY WITH MY " FAT FLABBY ARMS " AND " FRECKLES " -quotes you. but i guess you're happy just showing off the amount of excess fats you have in that little tight disgusting flimsy skirt and shirt of yours. which you claim you bought them yourself when your boyfriend had to spend money to get them for you. give him a little credit at least? i think you should just stop bitching about people in front or behind their backs cos you already have no friends.

semifinals tmrw!
:

2005-04-11T22:56:00.000+08:00
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haha oh yeah how could i forget.
i loooooooveeeeeeee youuuuuuu
my deaaaaaaresst friends foor listening
to my crappp mwahahah mwaaazxzxzxzxzxz

bye!

2005-04-11T22:48:00.000+08:00
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pooled again.
but with carol :D
haha shes damn sexy man.
SIT ON THE TABLE AND PLAY POOL
WOOOHOO I LIKE.. : HAHA.
couldnt stop teasing her.
wah even the way she bridge
IS ALSO SOO SEXY LEHH :) HAHA
and played w rachel and zhen and gnia.
i kept losing to gnia by one ball
soooooooooo annoying.
morn trng was quite fun.
sports fest was zzzz.
i almost fell aslp.
sorry lah ppl no mood to cheer mah
stomacheeeeeeee.
ive been having a lot of stomache
recently.
scary. prob i'll be diagnosed with
some strange illness soon ._.
my life revolves around pool netball and bloodddy schlwork
and of course my friends :)
raaah its sooo boring
but i will not be sooo bored that
i have to resort to spamming ppls gstbk
to make me feel less bored yeah.
pointless, doesnt help one bit.
believe it, or not.
sick of these. GOODBYE.
tonight is so damn cold
dont know why
think im falling sick soon.

2005-04-11T00:23:00.000+08:00

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tday was good :D
went to meet gnia in town.
and cut my hair.
brian like grew taller!?
by so muchh. ahha
anyway played pool with her
beat her about 3-4 times in a row
HAHAHA
cos i was not myself :)
hahah she also won me 3-4 times in a row ._.
yeahh thn we played with nigel too
hes FUNNY.
hahah yay okay bye
rejoice cos thers no schl tmrw and tues :)

2005-04-09T22:48:00.000+08:00
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so what if i'm faat :)
you're obese.

at least im not in self denial.
i live my life to the fullest,
insecure whore.

today was good.
i went out with siew kim
and then met up with zhen gnia jo and co.
haha i'm happy :D

2005-04-08T23:01:00.000+08:00
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HAHA AME SEE!
I CAN REMEMBER THE DATE.
raaaah.
she has been snapping at me these few days hokaaay
i was so pissed off -GLARES.
yahhh lah. i only ask her for the date
THEN SHE BLOWS UP AND ..
screams my name ):
so fierce, i dont like her.
HOHOHO. flag day nxt sat.
EVRYBODY COMEEE AND DONATE TO MEEEEE
i am going to make ame do pole dancing and strip for all the horny chee koh peks
and then they will have to donate for the show they've watched
WHETHER THEY ENJOY IT OR NOT :)
ame have faith in yourself! im sure YOU can do it!!!!!!

HAHA. i have finally finished social studies report!!!!
with the help of rachel ame eugenia and yizhen.
thank you very much :)
so happy.
but then i realise i have bio and math report
due nxt friday and nxt nxt tue that sucks.
and yay monday sports fest no lesson!
tues schl holiday YAAAAAAAAAAY
but wth we have a match against ST NICKS that daaaay
argh. pissing.
and monday morning got trng. then sports fest
I'VE ALREADY ARRANGED A HOT DATE
WITH CAROL WITH THE POOL BALLS :)
yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay.

tday we spent 32bucks on pool omgoodness.
i think the last time was like 28 bucks
omgggggggggggggggg its like almost 60bucks or more
a week we spend for pool!
-gazpz thats too much.
HAHAH. shit. ehhh gnia zhen! thats damn a lot leh.
hokay i had trng just now.
and ytd's match against pasir ris crest was bad.
i had diarrhoea. so wondy.
and i was taken off court like aft second quart?
the weather was hell
my stomach was hell
the game was scary.. but luckily we won.
34-16 i think.
chubbieee also had diarrhoea hwever you spell it?
i suck and i dont know how to spell that D word lah hokay.
damn stomache again!!!!
LISTEN TO
world is black - good charlotte!
switch - will smith!
sugar (gimme some) - trick daddy
you're a god - vertical horizon
i think im slow but nvm.
BYE I NEED THE TOILET.